tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-46636628591610392512024-02-20T08:23:20.725-08:00The Lazuli WaySnowy Owlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14913828466236719023noreply@blogger.comBlogger23125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4663662859161039251.post-66090868560597693872016-07-02T07:19:00.000-07:002016-07-02T07:20:51.420-07:00Freja’s Astro Advice July 2016 <div class="MsoNormal">
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<b>Queen of Vesicas,
Haematite, Connection<o:p></o:p></b></div>
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Aries, you need to stand firm in your inner convictions. It seems
that your boundaries may have been crossed in what has up until now been a stable situation
offering you security. You know what you want but fear losing an
important connection if you do what needs to be done. Your need for self-preservation
will always win out, so <i>try and gently nip
things in the bud to minimise any fall out</i>. You know in your heart that any
connection you have cannot be maintained at the expense of your needs. <o:p></o:p></div>
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<b>King of Cups,
Amethyst, Creativity<o:p></o:p></b></div>
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You have so much to offer the world Taurus and the world
has so much to offer you! July sees you questioning the value of a creative
project you want to get off the ground or an opportunity that has presented itself
to you; perhaps a new job or relationship. Being a pragmatist, you feel
excited by the potential but you are a little loath to believe in it until you
see some tangible results. Amethyst urges you to <i>let go of the outcome and enjoy the present with all that is currently
unfolding in your life</i>. <o:p></o:p></div>
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<b>Knight of Vesicas,
Moonstone, Birth<o:p></o:p></b></div>
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You are experiencing an emotional birthing process and are trying
to find your ground and regain inner stability. Deep emotions are
challenging for you, so the temptation is to rely on your practical or rational
side to re-balance yourself. This may have worked in the past, but moonstone is calling you to break this old pattern once and for all. The
feelings might be scary, but they are simply unfamiliar – try to <i>call upon your sense of adventure and love
of new experiences to carry you through! </i><o:p></o:p></div>
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Citrine, Reflection<o:p></o:p></b></div>
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You have been reflecting on your direction
or a situation that has bothered you for some time and have finally gained some
clarity. You are likely to make an important decision this
month – a decision that may even change the entire direction of your life. Citrine
helps you put your decision into positive, confident action and will also help you
manifest the abundance or opportunities you require to make changes. <i>Put aside any anxieties and focus your attention
on creating the outcome you want.</i><o:p></o:p></div>
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<b>7 Swords, Aventurine,
Commitment<o:p></o:p></b></div>
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This month you may find yourself questioning your
commitments and wondering where the boundaries lie. Space may have become an
issue, either emotional or physical, and tempers could flare. All
relationships require negotiation and it is normal to struggle from time to
time. Leo is a proud sign so this process can press your buttons! You need to release any built-up tension and invite calm into the
situation;. <i>let go of any black or white
thinking, and take things one day at a time</i>. <o:p></o:p></div>
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<b>5 Staffs, Garnet,
Fire<o:p></o:p></b></div>
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Wow, some really potent stuff going on Virgo - you have
enough energy and passion to move a small mountain! If there has been some
situation where you have been feeling powerless, you finally find the drive to
stand up for yourself, for another person or perhaps even a cause. Whatever you
put your mind to this month, with the energy of Fire and the daring of Garnet
behind you, you are very likely to succeed. So, <i>when you hear your heart calling, don’t be afraid to stand up or take
the initiative</i>.<o:p></o:p></div>
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<b>Queen of Swords, Red Jasper,
Choice<o:p></o:p></b></div>
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Oh, how you hate to have to choose Libra, it is so
hard for you to pick a side or make a decision <i>and stick to it</i>. When faced with a dilemma your mind becomes clouded
by all possibilities and, as the world’s greatest diplomat, you can see the benefits
and downsides of them all. Jasper suggests that you need to get out of your
head and into your body to resolve this one. <i>Reconnect with your inner balance through yoga, walking, or dancing;
once your mind becomes quiet the answer will come</i>. <o:p></o:p></div>
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<b>The Moon, Black
Tourmaline, Earth<o:p></o:p></b></div>
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Have you been getting a ‘funny feeling’ about someone or something?
As a Scorpio you have a highly developed psychic sense for danger, even if you do
sometimes choose to override it because enjoy the challenge of a difficult
situation! The Moon suggests that you are either confused by
your own misgivings or someone is doing a really good job of manipulating
your feelings. <i>Take a step back from the
confused emotions and listen to your body, it will tell you everything
you need to know</i>. <o:p></o:p></div>
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<b>The Hierophant,
Malachite, Chaos<o:p></o:p></b></div>
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There seems to be a situation or relationship where you are
handing over your power because you are feeling overwhelmed. Perhaps you are overly
idealising someone or accepting their authority instead of looking within for
the answers? When times get tough, it is easy to fall back into wanting a
parental figure to rescue us but ultimately this will not solve anything because
as adults, we need to find our own feet. <i>While
seeking support or guidance from others, remember that ultimately you are the
only real authority in your life</i>. <o:p></o:p></div>
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<b>3 of Vesicas, Turquoise,
Letting Go<o:p></o:p></b></div>
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A practical, creative, or work related project you have been
working on seems to be taking its time to bear fruit. Perhaps you are feeling impatient
with regards to the progress that is being made or have got overly caught up in
the details and frustrations and lost sight of the over-all goal. There is a
need to step back and see the bigger picture;<i> let go of your expectations, both positive and negative, and allow things
unfold in their own time</i>. You may even be pleasantly surprised by the end
results!<o:p></o:p></div>
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<b><span style="font-size: 14.0pt; line-height: 107%;">Aquarius<o:p></o:p></span></b></div>
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<b>King of Staffs, Rose
Quartz, Stability<o:p></o:p></b></div>
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The King of Staffs suggests a time when you can easily tune
into your creative energy and confidently approach any new goals.
As you ‘up your game’ you will need to take on more responsibility,
and this may challenge and stretched to the core. To help you
move forward and continue to grow into the person you are meant to be, <i>it is
important that you forgive yourself for any past mistakes (real or imagined) and
remain grounded through your connection to Source Energy</i>. <o:p></o:p></div>
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<b>9 of Staffs, Charoite,
Challenge<o:p></o:p></b></div>
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It seems you are feeling a little guarded and wary about a
person or an uncomfortable situation you are in. Perhaps you feel the need to hold
back on your feelings or possibly to keep an aspect of yourself or your personal
views hidden from view. While it is important to be honest and authentic with
others, in this case you have good reason to be cautious. You are intuitively picking
up on something that needs to be considered so <i>trust your instincts and pay careful
attention to any red flags</i>. <o:p></o:p></div>
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Snowy Owlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14913828466236719023noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4663662859161039251.post-24180764647460057012013-10-03T16:36:00.001-07:002013-10-03T16:36:44.933-07:00The Oasis<b><span style="font-size: x-large;"><i><span style="font-size: small;">A parable of struggle, faith and healing</span></i></span></b><br />
by Freja Shamanka <br />
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The sun is rising, gradually scorching the skin of the earth. Bone dry land cut with an infinite blue sky. A hazy horizon veils the sun as it creeps upward towards its zenith. Another day without. Another day of torture. Another day of desperate searching.<br />
I pray for water, for a respite from my suffering. My keen eye is focused on the horizon, scanning for any sign of The Oasis. Nothing else matters. Every day is like the last; hours of effort spent chasing mirages and always with such promise. 'This time!' I chant to myself. <i>This time it will be different</i>.<br />
From deep within my psyche I am able to tap into an endless reservoir of steely determination and heroic perseverance. I honestly couldn't tell you where this will comes from. To give up is completely out of the question for I always reason with myself, perhaps I just need to try a little harder.<br />
At the end of each day I am exhausted and utterly devastated by one excruciating disappointment after another. As I lie down to rest my weary bones, I lament my misfortune and ponder on what I must have done to make God hate me so. Why have you forsaken me? What am I doing wrong? Tears of frustration and pain prick my eyes and break forth sliding down my parched cheeks.<br />
A new day is born. I awaken but am motionless. The energy I once had has seeped away and crept back into the earth. Eventually I rise and find a smooth rock to sit on. I will not move right now. I will wait for a bit as I hope my fervor returns to drive me forward again. Today I have awoken a little earlier than usual and the sun is low in the sky. It is not really cold but there is still a slight chill in the air. I notice that the rock beneath me feels quite solid and surprisingly reassuring.<br />
As I sit on this rock, out of nowhere I hear a voice as clear as day.<br />
<i> 'How long have you been here?'</i><br />
'What, here on this rock?'<br />
<i> 'How long have you been in the desert?'</i><br />
I consider this question for a moment. I must have been here for quite some time. Not weeks but months? No – it must have been years. As I stop to consider my predicament, I realise with great sadness that I have actually been here for many years indeed.<br />
<i> 'Then why are you not dead?'</i><br />
I hadn't spoken my answer but apparently the voice can also hear my thoughts. I am slightly perturbed by this but there is something curiously comforting about it.<br />
'Now that's a tough one... Why am I not dead? Probably because I haven't given up yet. Heaven knows, it is not because I have found any water!'<br />
The words echo around my head. It is true, I have managed to keep on going despite everything. But if I haven't found water in so many years, how on earth have I not died? This puzzling realisation nudges its way into my consciousness.<br />
<i>'So, why do you persist in chasing the mirage?'</i><br />
'Because I need water of course! If I do not get some water soon then I will die. Each time I glimpse water shimmering on the horizon, I must at least <i>try</i> to get to it - even if it turns out to be another mirage. I really can't give up, I must keep going until I find The Oasis – I know it is out there somewhere.'<br />
<i> 'If you need this water to survive, then why have you not died?'</i><br />
'Maybe I am given the strength to keep going because I refuse to give up. Maybe if I stop searching, that's when the thirst will get a grip on me and I will shrivel up and die.'<br />
<i>'How can chasing mirages bring you what you truly desire?'</i><br />
'It's not the mirage I want, its the real thing. Real water; The Oasis. You see, there is nothing else, I must get to The Oasis and if I have to chase a few mirages along the way to get to it, then so be it. Eventually God will reward me for all my effort and for my faith. And besides, if I don't try to get to it how will I ever know that it is a mirage? I am not going to be able to survive without water forever, so if I am not even going to try to find The Oasis, I may as well dig a hole and bury myself now!'<br />
<i> 'I still do not understand how chasing mirages will bring you what you desire.'</i><br />
'What's not to understand? It's perfectly simple. I hate chasing the mirages. I hate the enormous effort, the crushing disappointment and that awful soul destroying pain that follows behind me like a shadow. I have even started to distrust the excitement of the distant sparkle because I now expect to be disappointed. But my faith keeps me going, I simply will not allow this torture to get to me. I have to believe there is a way out of the desert. And besides, with each mirage, I must be getting closer to the real thing – you know with probability and all that.'<br />
<i> 'That is an interesting theory, but you have missed one a crucial point.'</i><br />
I feel have argued my case very convincingly, covering all angles and possibilities. Everything points to the same thing, every cell in my body screams that I MUST KEEP GOING. I do however feel curious that this voice seems to know something that I do not.<br />
'What's that then Big Voice?'<br />
<i> 'A mirage will always be a mirage.'</i><br />
'Well, yes, of course it is! But surely finding a mirage is better than nothing? I can at least live in hope.'<br />
<i>'When you live in the world of mirages, there is no hope. A mirage can only ever be a mirage.'</i><br />
'But don't you see, I must find The Oasis, I need water to survive!'<br />
'That is an interesting statement from someone who has been chasing mirages, without respite, for so many years. Not once has a mirage turned out to be the 'real thing'. If you really do need The Oasis to survive then how is it that you are not dead?'<br />
I am beginning to feel cornered and slightly nauseous as threatening cracks appear in my reasoning. What the voice says is true and it does raise a very good question. But I honestly do not know the answer and it is starting to perplex me. As my mind races to find some reasoning it can latch onto, Big Voice speaks;<br />
<i> 'You have not died because you do not need to find The Oasis to survive.'</i><br />
Well that does make sense - I have not found it and yet I am still alive. Perhaps I do not need The Oasis after all. But as I try on this possibility, something floating around in my mind still doesn't quite add up. Surely I must need water if I am stuck in the desert? <br />
<i>'When you sleep, what do you dream?'</i><br />
I smile to myself as I recall the dream I had last night, it's a dream I have had many times before.<br />
'I dream about wonderful things. A man and woman come to me with a white horse. The man carries a lantern and the woman has beautiful wings like a dove. The lantern emits a gentle golden light which dances in the shadows. They come and sit down beside and as I begin to sit up, she wraps her soft wings around me and holds me close. His lantern lights up her face which is peaceful and luminous. She always sheds a tear, just one, and it splashes onto my cracked lips, exploding into a million water droplets, from which I drink deeply. I look up into her warm dark eyes, and she looks right into my soul. I just lie with her like that for a while. Then the man asks me to get on the horse's back and come with them. At this point, the heat of the sun always wakes up.'<br />
<i> 'Do you feel thirsty when you wake?'</i><br />
I pause for a moment and remember my lips, my mouth, my throat. I swallow.<br />
'No, I suppose I don't. But as soon as I am awake, I know I must start the search.'<br />
<i> 'The search for what?'</i><br />
'For water of course. The sun is rising, the heat is coming, The Oasis beckons me.'<br />
<i> 'But you are not driven by thirst?'</i><br />
'It is funny you should ask me that, because if I actually think about it, I do not feel thirsty. But I am sure I will be if I don't find water soon. It is the desert that makes me do it. It frightens me and makes me believe that I must search for water, after all, I know I am going to need it sooner or later.'<br />
<i>'So how is it that you are not dead?'</i><br />
'I don't know!' I shout impatiently.<br />
I stop for a moment, my angry words ringing around my head. Somehow I am now aware of the rock beneath me, so solid and calm. I look around and notice the sun is feeling hotter, it has reached a pleasant temperature, for now at least. In this moment I become aware of my body. It is strange that I am not thirsty. For the first time in years I feel my breath, the pervasive ache in my bones, a light, flickering heart beat. Somehow my body has become a complete stranger to me, silently following me around like a lost dog. As my chest rises and falls, my stomach expands and contracts with each faithful breath. I detect a feint but distinct smell, a crisp freshness floating past my nostrils. It fades and disappears only to return moments later, so sweet and moist.<br />
<i>'I am the man with the lantern.'</i><br />
Oh. I look down at the floor. His voice is crystal clear, but when I look up, I can see no one.<br />
<i> 'That is because I am not in physical form.'</i><br />
'Then who are you?'<br />
<i> 'That is another story for another time. I am here with you now, even if you can't see me, so shall we talk?'</i><br />
'Well I suppose so, but you will have to be quick, the sun is getting hotter and you know, the glistening promise of water is bound to catch my eye sooner or later.'<br />
I am already scanning the horizon to see what is out there. Maybe I missed something yesterday, I was so tired when I finally stopped to rest.<br />
<i> 'I come to you with a message. You are not in need of The Oasis because you are not trapped in the desert, you can leave at any time. You have choice. You can continue with your futile struggle chasing mirages, putting all your faith in The Oasis, or you can come with us. You find it easier to believe in something you can see with your eyes, even though in your heart you know that what you see is an illusion. Your eyes deceive you over and over again yet this does not dissuade you from your quest.</i><br />
<i>What appears before you, glittering in the distance can never bring you happiness and no amount of your effort or faith can ever change What Is So. But after each futile chase, I will be here, waiting for you. I am more real than anything you will ever see with your eyes.'</i><br />
'Well thanks for that Big Voice – I will bare that in mind! I have to be honest, I do love meeting you in my dreams. It is just a shame that you can't really be here, you know, in the flesh where I can touch you and see your face. After all it is this world that I have to contend with, and in the real world I need real water! But it's great having you around. Oh! Look! Over there, shimmering on the horizon... I ma really sorry, but I have got to go!'<br />
And in an instant I forget my weariness. I forget my breath, the rock and Big Voice. My pace quickens. My focus and energy beams straight ahead, like a predator with its prey in sight. I march purposefully into the rising heat, my goal unchanged. I need water and The Oasis is where I will find it. This will be The One. This time my faith will win out and all my effort will be rewarded. This time God will give me a break and finally put an end to my suffering. This time I can <i>make</i> it happen.<br />
Night draws in and once again I am disappointed and completely exhausted. <i>Why?</i> Why won't God give me a break? Why won't God give me the water I need? Don't I deserve it? Aren't I trying hard enough? Am I not patient or persistent enough? It is the one thing that I want, the single most important thing in the world to me, so why won't God just give me what I want? Others seem to get to live by rivers or lakes, so why can't I? Why do I have to keep struggling in this desert - haven't I suffered enough?!<br />
I slump down in utter despair. This quest is driving me mad but I really can't see any way around it. Whatever Big Voice said, I am in this desert and I do need water. Once I have found The Oasis I could finally relax and be happy. I know that they have all turned out to be mirages but really – how could I possibly know that will always be the case? If I did give up, I don't see how I could ever really know that if I hadn't tried a bit harder or walked a bit faster that I wouldn't have found out The Oasis was there after all. I am absolutely convinced that I can't be trying hard enough. Maybe God senses my lack of faith or impatience and he is punishing me for it. If I give up now, after all these years – what could I possibly gain?<br />
I begin to fall asleep. It is a deep but troubled sleep, as questions still twist and knot up my mind. I am restless in the knowledge that God has let me down – again. Then they come, just a silhouette at first. The lantern's yellow glow bouncing off rock and bush, growing larger than life then slipping quietly into the enveloping darkness. I feel quite awake as they approach. I can hear the horse breathe deeply, hooves click clacking on stones. I notice that the horse is not being led, it walks freely by the man and woman. Their step is deliberate and purposeful.<br />
The horse waits nearby while the woman and man come right to my side. I look up at the woman, she really is quite stunning. Her long dark hair is straight and gleaming in the flickering light. Her wings are long and pure white with gold tips. She wraps me in them and at once I feel relief. All my troubles melt away and I realise I can breath deeply again. She sheds a tear and I am replenished with that single drop. As I look deep into her eyes I know that I am loved. As her gaze holds mine, I feel the eternal expansion of my heart. Slowly, the gentle pink petals of my heart unfurl and unfold revealing an exquisite ruby centre. In that moment I am transported beyond time and space and I feel complete.<br />
As she gently releases me, I sit up. The man with the lantern comes forward and breaks the silence between us.<br />
<i>'Your horse awaits you, will you come with us?'</i><br />
I take a deep shaky breath.<br />
'I want to come with you, really, I do. But this is just a dream in my head and I don't believe that you can really help me. I have faith in The Oasis, I truly believe that one day I will find it and this is what I really want. I love this dream, but I need real water and the Oasis is the only place I will be able to find that. I cannot survive on a dream when I am living in a desert. Perhaps you are another illusion, a temptation that is keeping me from finding The Oasis.'<br />
<i> 'If we are an illusion how then how is it you not dead?'</i><br />
'I don't know! You make me feel better, and I am truly grateful for that, but really – I need something in the real world. The desert may be full of mirages but at least I can see them and I can keep trying to find The Oasis. I have faith that God will give me a break one of these days. If I give up now and go off with dream figures, what hope have I possibly got?'<br />
<i>'What has kept you going all these years in the desert? Who has sustained you while you have been chasing mirages?'</i><br />
'Okay, you have – I accept that and if I think about it I really don't know what I would have done without you visiting my dreams. Perhaps I would have died. I really appreciate all that you and this beautiful woman have done for me. Will you stay with me? Will you help me? I need you to be there while I continue my search for The Oasis, I really don't think I could go on without you. You have made me see that I probably don't need it to survive, but this desert is driving me mad and if I give up the search, I don't think I will be able to go on living. Once I have found The Oasis, perhaps then I could go with you on the horse?'<br />
<i>'We will always be here for you no matter what you choose.'</i><br />
I wake up quite suddenly. Again the rising heat. Again scouring the horizon for the promise of hope. I lick my lips and they are still moist and taste of pink. As I lick them I find a droplet which bursts open again so that I can drink. I have never tasted the tears when I have been awake before. As I wipe my mouth, I smell rose perfume on my hand. First the dreams, then the voice. Now the juice and the smells – has the desert finally got its claws into my psyche and sent me over the edge? The mirages are bad enough, but this? Surely I have gone quite mad.<br />
I stand up, stretch and a few old bones click. I am beginning to feel deeply concerned. All I want is an end to my suffering, to find The Oasis, that's all. Is it really too much to ask? I want <i>real </i>water, <i>real</i> refuge. Somehow the mirages always seem so full of promise, so real as they shimmer in the distance. When it all turns out to be just another trick, it makes me doubt myself – should I run faster, try harder, be more focused or patient? I can never be sure that it is not my lack of faith that is letting me down. Surely if I really believed in The Oasis, one of the mirages would miraculously reveal itself to be what I have always wanted and I would finally get my happy ending.<br />
<i> 'Please explain to me why believing in The Oasis is so important to you.'</i><br />
I have only just woken up but I am already sick of going around in these circles in my mind. A conversation with Big Voice is a welcome break.<br />
'I believe The Oasis is a refuge from this harsh desert, a wonderful place of retreat. I want to get to the end of this search, I can't tell you how weary and lost I feel. I want to arrive. I want my life to start, to feel at home and nourished. I want to feel safe in the knowledge that God really does love me. This relentless desert feels like an eternal punishment and it makes me feel that somehow I am not deserving or that I am not trying hard enough. The Oasis is important to me because when God finally decides to reveal it to me, then I will know I have passed the test of faith and all my efforts will finally be rewarded. I did used to believe that I needed it in order to survive but you have changed that. Now I can see that it is just something I want so I can end my struggle. And if God doesn't notice how hard I am trying...'<br />
<i> 'Then?'</i><br />
'Then I can't be trying hard enough.'<br />
<i> 'Ah, I see.'</i><br />
'I think that I must be getting close or at least be doing something right because you have been helping me as I journey to find The Oasis. I have been keeping a record so I can try and avoid going back over the same ground, I am not completely aimless in my search. I really believe I must be about to find it soon, after all it has been many, many years! The thought of having to go on for much longer fills me with dread. Each mirage makes me feel paradoxically more hopeful that I am getting closer and more doubtful that I am getting it right. But, whichever it is, the solution must be to try harder. I don't want to give up now after all I have been through, and what if it is just around the next corner? Hang on. What's that over there? Excuse me please, I will speak to you later!'<br />
And off I go. I carefully scan the horizon and this time I am sure I can see trees as well. That's got to be a good sign! My heart begins to race with eager anticipation. I begin a steady jog towards the edge of the world, as far as the eye can see. This has really got to be it! Suddenly I am stung by a sharp pain in my right ankle. I stumble and fall. My God - a snake! I have been bitten - two clear vampire holes in my flesh. The snake recoils and disappears behind some rocks. I panic. My leg is already swelling, turning red and throbbing. I can hardly breathe I feel so afraid. I pass out.<br />
I am dreaming again. This time I am not asleep in my dream. I am sat, in the dark, besides a fire. There is a strong scent coming from the wood smoke. The fire is surrounded by a circle of small rocks. I sense that I am not alone, that there is a presence in the shadows. At first I wonder if it is the woman and the man with the lantern, but it is not. While focusing on the shadows trying to figure out who is there, I am also aware that I am surrounded by trees. Not sand and rocks but <i>trees</i>. This can not be! Trees, really? Before I get too excited, I remind myself that this is only a dream. But the musty damp woody smell with fresh sweet overtones is almost overwhelming. It is almost unbearable as I am drenched in such a festival of scents; absolutely divine.<br />
I am aware that my ankle is wounded, but it does not hurt. Despite the lack of pain, I know I have been bitten, that liquid poison is spreading through my body and that I need to get help before it is too late. I am both ecstatic and in a state of intense panic. I have no idea what to do. I sit in front of the fire, mesmerised as it crackles and spits in its own sparky little dance.<br />
<i>'Turn to your left.'</i><br />
I look over my shoulder, twisting my body around as I try to focus on the shadows. As my eyes get accustomed, an animal figure moves quietly towards me. It is a stag. It stops where I can see it and turns to face back into the wood, as if asking me to follow it. I stand up and find that I am able to walk, so I follow this stag into the night. It begins a gentle trot down a windy path which is barely visible under the moon light. I can sense the poison is creeping silently up my leg.<br />
<i>'We must reach the house before the poison reaches your heart. Jump on my back.'</i><br />
Without hesitation, I jump on. The strong bony back moves fluidly as the stag gains speed to a canter. Soon the canter is a flowing sure footed gallop. We are going up hill and the trees are becoming more sparse. Finally I see light up ahead and we come to a little stone house set into the side of quite a steep hill. The stag gently slows to a halt outside the front door and I jump off, a little stiff from the ride. I barely have time to thank the stag and it has gone, silently slipping back into the woods.<br />
I stand in front of the door and see that it is slightly ajar, as if expecting someone. A warm fire light streams through the gap and there is a strong inviting smell of cooking food drifting out of the door and into the night.<br />
I am just about to knock on the door when quiet but strong woman's voice calls for me to come in. I push the door open slowly but surely and take the shallow step inside. I close the door behind me. When I turn, the room is quite small with a low ceiling and a large fire with a cooking pot. The walls are a deep red orange and there is a large oak table in the centre of the room. The woman is over by the fire cooking a sumptuous broth.<br />
<i>'Sit down.' </i>she says gently but in a way one could hardly refuse.<br />
I pull up a big solid oak chair and sit down at the table. She comes over and places a bowl of the hot stew and home made bread in front of me. She hands me a spoon and knife and indicates that there is a pot of butter on the table. Aromatic rosemary steam floats up from the broth tantalising my taste buds. I suddenly realise that I am desperately hungry as my mouth starts watering and my stomach rumbles rather loudly. I tuck in, satiating my hunger in grateful mouthfuls.<br />
<i> 'You have a wounded ankle and poison inside you which is inching its way up towards your heart. You have reached an important cross roads – I can heal your wound and rid you of the poison. Is this what you want?'</i><br />
'Yes, oh yes please! I can't feel the pain but I don't want the poison to get to my heart. Can you really help?'<br />
<i>'Well, that is a very good question, and it depends. Do you want this more than anything else in the world?'</i><br />
I stop eating and close my eyes for a moment. Now she's asking! I know that I am wounded, but I can't feel the pain at the moment and I am not convinced that this will kill me. Would I be telling the truth if I said that I wanted it more than anything else in the world? I mean, what about the The Oasis? I don't want to lie to this woman, I don't think I could get away with it even if I tried. I am sure she would spot a lie a mile away.<br />
<i> 'If you want to heal, I can help you. But you have to want it more than anything else in the world. You cannot feel the poison spreading through your body, but you know that you have been bitten by a snake. The choice is yours, you can put your faith in The Oasis, or in me. I cannot say what will happen if you choose to ignore the snake bite and continue your search for The Oasis.'</i><br />
'If I am in danger, then why can't I feel the pain?'<br />
<i>'You are numb. You are numb to your body and to your feelings. Your quest for The Oasis takes you into your head and into a pursuit which numbs out everything else. Your focus is always away from that which is wounded. You must choose. Do you want to continue to run in pursuit of The Oasis or do you want to surrender and hand your healing over to me? If you do not let go of The Oasis completely, I will not be able to heal you. It is that simple. You cannot pretend because the healing just won't work even if we tried. It is not a rational decision that you can make with your mind – the healing will just happen if and when you allow it.'</i><br />
I take another spoonful of the delicious broth while I mull things over. The Oasis is driving me quite mad. Perhaps I could kill two birds with one stone, so to speak, letting go of the search for The Oasis and getting this poison out of me.<br />
<i> 'Once you have completely let go of The Oasis, when you look to the horizon and see a mirage, you will not start hoping and praying that it is The Oasis. The desire will be gone.'</i><br />
I play with this idea for a moment. No more searching! I try to imagine what that would actually feel like. I am extremely excited by this prospect. Then I remember the desert and I am hit by a terrible sinking feeling in my stomach. Without hope of finding The Oasis, how am I ever going to survive the desert? I will have absolutely nothing to live for. All I will have is day after day of empty scorching heat and devastating loneliness. My heart aches at the thought of it. As I realise what a horrible prospect this would be I am suddenly very aware of why I chase the mirages, why I have put my faith in The Oasis - it distracts me from the dreadful sense of desolation and alleviates the constant fear that follows me around, the fear that there really is nothing out there, that I am completely alone. The desperate search for The Oasis enables me to hide from the futile nature of my existence, it gives me hope so I can keep going. Perhaps it even keeps me sane; surely disappointment must be better than absolute nothingness?<br />
First I believed that I searched for The Oasis because I needed it to survive. When I realised that I didn't actually need it to live, I reasoned that it would be just reward for my efforts and my faith that I would one day be saved, if I could just keep on going, keep believing. But now, I can see he truth as clear as a cold shiny sword poised to strike my heart. The truth is, my life in the desert would be utterly unbearable without it. If God has given me this awful desert to live in, then I may as well keep the believing in The Oasis. It keeps me occupied at the very least.<br />
'Old woman, I want to let go of The Oasis, really I do. And I want you to heal me. But with nothing to replace it except a poison free body and a healed ankle, there would be nothing to live for. You see, I need my faith in The Oasis, not to survive but to make my life bearable. Without the hope of one day finding that wonderful magical place, well to be frank, I may as well curl up in the futile sand and die. If I have to give up that hope in order to be healed, then I would rather allow the poison to get to my heart. At least this way, I would be free.'<br />
<i> 'But child, you do have something to replace that hope, that belief in The Oasis.'</i><br />
I stare blankly at the wall. This really is the bottom line.<br />
'What? What could possibly replace The Oasis except desolation and pain?'<br />
<i> 'Remember the winged woman and the man with the lantern? You wouldn't go with them because of your overwhelming desire for The Oasis. Perhaps you could find the faith to put your life in their hands and follow them instead of chasing mirages or giving up on life altogether. After all, the mirages haven't paid off yet and you are even willing to die for the cause – so what have you really got to lose?'</i><br />
I become very quiet. The old woman's words resonate in my mind and reverberate through my soul; the sword of truth pierces my empty heart. Slowly my ankle beings to throb. The pain gathers momentum increasing in intensity until it is a sharp stabbing pain and I am acutely aware of the poison seeping just inches away from my heart.<br />
'ENOUGH!' I scream, 'Get out of me!! You have no place inside me poison – I don't want you here GET OUT!'<br />
The white rage takes me by surprise but immediately the poison begins its sticky retreat, oozing out of my leg; out of the vampire holes which have enlarged and are now red raw and gaping. The burning poison slowly and painfully trickles out of me and onto the floor, seeping between the floorboards and down into the earth. When the very last drop has gone, the bite bleeds a little fresh blood and scabs up ready to heal, right before my eyes. I am in shock. Where did all that rage come from?<br />
<i> 'My child, it was your surrender – your soul's decision to let go of The Oasis and embrace faith in something Higher. You have begun a deep healing; you have been replenished and the poison has all gone. All you have to do now is follow your heart.'</i><br />
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Suddenly I am wide awake. I sit bolt upright and look around me. The sun is going down and I sit frozen to the spot. I check my leg, it looks quite healthy with two small scabs where snake fangs had broken my skin. I am feeling OK, if a little shaken up. Was that a dream? Am I about to die?<br />
I realise that I feel strangely alive and in touch with my senses. I decide to believe it was real – I have nothing to lose and if I am about to die, well, there is clearly nothing I can do about it now. Normally I go to sleep as soon as the sun goes down out of sheer exhaustion but right now I feel wide awake and my body is buzzing with an unfamiliar energy. My mind is calm and clear, not manic or searching, just awake. I get up cautiously, not sure if my leg will hurt when I stand. Gingerly,I put my weight on both feet attempting to connect with the solid ground beneath me. Like a new born, I feel a little unsteady on my feet, but mostly I am excited by the new possibility that unfolds before me.<br />
I feel this incredible sense of peace and the darkness brings a welcome solace. I decide to walk into the sunset. As I take gentle steps into the diminishing sunlight, I feel my muscles begin to relax. My mind is free. I beckon the voice, the dream people; 'I want to come with you'.<br />
<i> 'We are always here, all you have to do is ask. You can come any time.'</i><br />
'I want to be with you, to commit to walking along side you. I want to follow your guidance. I want your lantern to light my way, your wisdom to guide me. I want to leave this desert, to walk away from the mirages.'<br />
<i> 'We are so glad you have decided to join us, we will not let you down. Soon you will come to a place of rest but this place is not the goal – it is simply the result of your faith. The goal is inner peace and with your commitment, you will leave the desert with no effort. It will happen naturally. Keep your faith. Keep your contact with us and you will be guided each step of the way. And if you forget, we will still be waiting for you once you remember.'</i><br />
'I feel quite sad that I have been unable to listen to you before. I feel sad that you have been here all this time and I have turned my back on you. I never realised how much I struggled until I stopped and let it all go.'<br />
<i>'Do not underestimate how far you have come or how much you have accomplished by finally letting go. The mirage is a powerful magnet for one who believes they are in the desert. You have now chosen to take the path out of the desert, the path of true faith, and we will not let you down. We are always here – all you have to do is ask and open your heart to receive. The rest will take care of itself.'</i><br />
'Thank you, thank you so much for being there.'<br />
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I walk on into the night. I notice my feet compressing the sand, leaving my footprints along the way. I can feel my heart beating and my lungs filling with the cool night air. I begin to hear the feint sound of drums, nothing dramatic, just gentle, rhythmic and constant. I walk toward this sound that beckons me; the heart beat of the night. I can detect the flicker of orange light and the feint scent of cedar smoke. As I walk closer, the fire is getting bigger and creates a flamenco dance in the shadows. I experience an incredible excitement while simultaneously feeling a deep pervasive calm. I walk forward with purpose because I know I am free.<br />
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<b><span style="font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt;">The World, Ruby, Openness </span></b><span style="font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt;">You have put a lot of
time and effort into a project or relationship that is very important to you. When
you started out you had a clear idea about your goals and about how you wanted
things to turn out. Things are now coming to some form of conclusion, but it
may not be in the way you imagined. </span><i><span style="color: #7030a0; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 11.0pt; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">Keep an open mind and allow things to unfold</span></i><span style="color: #7030a0; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 11.0pt; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;"> </span><span style="font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt;">before deciding whether
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<b><span style="font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt;">3 Vesicas, Rhodonite, Letting Go<span class="apple-converted-space"> </span></span></b><span style="font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt;">You have been putting creative efforts
into trying to make something work. However, it seems that you may have been trying
to apply a practical solution to essentially emotional problem. You need to
decide if this situation would benefit from a more emotional approach before
proceeding further and also to</span><i><span style="color: purple; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 11.0pt; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;"> </span></i><i><span style="color: #7030a0; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 11.0pt; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">make sure you are not looking for love, validation
or support where it doesn’t exist</span></i><span style="color: #7030a0; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 11.0pt; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">.<b><o:p></o:p></b></span></div>
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<b><span style="font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt;">Patience, Hematite, Simplicity<span class="apple-converted-space"> </span></span></b><span class="apple-converted-space"><span style="font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt;">There is a stubborn problem in your life that needs
to be properly tackled. Your natural propensity is to flit around such issues,
but this really must be tackled head on! Be honest with yourself about the true
nature of the issue and what you will need to do to deal with it. Apply the
simplest approach possible & </span></span><i><span style="color: #7030a0; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 11.0pt; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-weight: bold; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">be prepared to patiently
and resolutely chip away at it until the problem is fully resolved</span></i><span class="apple-converted-space"><span style="color: #7030a0; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 11.0pt; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-weight: bold; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">. <b><o:p></o:p></b></span></span></div>
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<b><span style="font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt;">Maid of Cups, Citrine, Connection<span class="apple-converted-space"> </span></span></b><span class="apple-converted-space"><span style="font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt;">You have a lot to offer those you care about, yet your
sensitivity can sometimes cause you to clam up or put to put defences between
yourself and others to avoid getting hurt. You may not readily admit this and
believe that others are not being available or loving enough. </span></span><span class="apple-converted-space"><i><span style="color: #7030a0; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 11.0pt; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-weight: bold; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">Gently </span></i></span><i><span style="color: #7030a0; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 11.0pt; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-weight: bold; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">accept any feelings of
vulnerability</span></i><span style="font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 11.0pt; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-style: italic; mso-bidi-font-weight: bold; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;"> and you will find that it becomes much easier
to form close emotional ties with others</span><span class="apple-converted-space"><span style="font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 11.0pt; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-weight: bold; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">. <b><o:p></o:p></b></span></span></div>
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<b><span style="font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt;">8 Swords, Snowflake Obsidian, Earth<span class="apple-converted-space"> </span></span></b><span style="font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt;">Something in your physical world
is causing your problems right now, possibly money or your health. You are
quite determined to ‘get rid of’ the problem and may have spent a lot of time
and energy trying to exorcise it and be feeling quite frustrated by it. Before
you put any more energy into trying to banish this problem, </span><i><span style="color: #7030a0; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 11.0pt; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">take some time to look for the hidden message or
gift</span></i><span style="color: #7030a0; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 11.0pt; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">
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<b><span style="font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt;">Knight of Swords, Carnelian, Spirit Guide<span class="apple-converted-space"> </span></span></b><span class="apple-converted-space"><span style="font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt;">You are making someone or something into your Higher
Power, or perhaps someone is trying to act like one and to convince you that
you are ‘less than’ equal. You need to cut through the bull and get to the
truth: you are an equal human being no matter what role you are playing and you
don’t have to put up with rubbish treatment from others. </span></span><span class="apple-converted-space"><i><span style="color: #7030a0; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 11.0pt; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-weight: bold; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">It is time to make self-care your absolute top priority</span></i></span><span class="apple-converted-space"><span style="font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt;">. <b><o:p></o:p></b></span></span></div>
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<b><span style="font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt;">7 Vesicas, Fluorite, Birth<span class="apple-converted-space"> </span></span></b><span class="apple-converted-space"><span style="font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt;">Things are coming to fruition and you are reaping
the rewards for your hard work. This isn’t so much a new beginning, as the
re-birthing of some aspect of your authentic self. Like with any labour, there
will be some pain involved in this process, but rest assured it is the
harvesting of something you have been working on for some time. </span></span><span class="apple-converted-space"><i><span style="color: #7030a0; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 11.0pt; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-weight: bold; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">Ask for Spirit to support and guide you during this exciting time</span></i></span><span class="apple-converted-space"><span style="font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt;">.<b><o:p></o:p></b></span></span></div>
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<b><span style="font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt;">4 Vesicas, Jade, Challenge </span></b><span style="font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt;">Life is full of challenges and you are usually pretty good at facing them
head on because you believe this makes you a stronger person and also helps you
to feel in control. The situation you are currently facing requires a less
direct approach. While it is important to remain true to yourself and your
values, you are being challenged to </span><i><span style="color: #7030a0; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 11.0pt; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-weight: bold; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">withdraw from the situation and find your inner balance</span></i><span style="font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt;">.<b><o:p></o:p></b></span></div>
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<b><span style="font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt;">The Devil, Red Jasper, Love<span class="apple-converted-space"> </span></span></b><span class="apple-converted-space"><span style="font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt;">Someone new may have entered your life or perhaps
you are searching for a new adventure. While adventure and new experiences keep
life interesting, it is important that you keep your feet firmly on the ground
while you explore new territory. There is a danger of you over idealising
someone or something or of getting a bit carried away. </span></span><span class="apple-converted-space"><i><span style="color: #7030a0; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 11.0pt; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-weight: bold; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">Remain grounded and take things one step at a time!</span></i></span><span class="apple-converted-space"><span style="color: #7030a0; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 11.0pt; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-weight: bold; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;"> </span></span><span class="apple-converted-space"><b><span style="font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></b></span></div>
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<b><span style="font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt;">Ace of Vesicas, Malachite, Change<span class="apple-converted-space"> </span></span></b><span style="font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt;">While you enjoy progressing in
life, you tend to only like change when it is taking you closer to tangible
goals. Your current situation requires emotional changes and this feels far
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<b><span style="font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt;">6 Swords, Amazonite, Stability<span class="apple-converted-space"> </span></span></b><span style="font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt;">Your perspective on some key
issues is changing and may continue to do so for a while. Although this can
feel rather unsettling at times, it doesn’t mean that the foundations in your
life or internal feelings of stability need to be challenged. Use this time to </span><i><span style="color: #7030a0; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 11.0pt; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">allow your views to shift and change without giving
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knowing right now, or with a little effort on your part, will be very soon.
Your connection to spirit is strong and this is a fabulous time to pray or
meditate for answers. If things feel a little uncertain or unclear right now it
is only because, like the dark of the New Moon, things are going on under the
surface which are not yet ready to be revealed. </span></span><span class="apple-converted-space"><i><span style="color: #7030a0; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 11.0pt; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-weight: bold; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">Test your intuitive powers to see what is coming next</span></i></span><span class="apple-converted-space"><span style="font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt;">. <o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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Snowy Owlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14913828466236719023noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4663662859161039251.post-67144562271997420572013-07-22T06:22:00.000-07:002013-07-31T08:51:50.096-07:00So, What is 'The Point' of Life?<div class="MsoNormal">
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into things such as building a career, raising children, or searching for love, at some point it becomes clear that life isn’t going to
bring us the ‘happy ever after’ that we expected to reach at the age of 25 or
30. Instead, many of us find that life has started to resemble the ultimate
‘shaggy dog story’; no sooner than one particular goal is reached or problem
solved than another one arrives to take its place. If none of our efforts will
eventually lead to the happy ending we dreamed of as children, then what <i>is</i> the point of life? </div>
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For most people the point of life is the reward we hope (or
expect) to enjoy for all the efforts we make. The Christian ideology that is
ingrained in Western culture suggests that if we work hard and tolerate the daily
grind with a serene smile on our faces, that we will eventually be rewarded in
Heaven. In this way of thinking, the point is to struggle and
sacrifice while finding a way to maintain our faith in the promise of an amazing after
life. While many Westerners are a little more earthly and pragmatic in their
approach today, they are still ultimately looking for some kind of reward, usually the big pay cheque or finding the love of our lives. There are still others who feel the only point to
life is to propagate the species which, if it is, would of course be the biggest
shaggy dog story of all time. This particular belief leads to the
rather dodgy conclusion that people who are unable to procreate have no real reason
to exist and that women who choose not to have children or people in same sex relationships
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We may choose various ways to give our life meaning but the point of life itself
must be beyond these individual choices or, depending on your point of view, certain
individuals or groups would automatically be barred from having any right to
exist. While individuals and cultures may adopt various different values and
approaches to life, the underlying point of life <i>has</i> to be universal<i>.</i> Human beings are continually projecting their experiences and
beliefs out into the world whilst believing they are looking at the whole
picture, but you can only see the whole picture when you include <i>all</i> human experiences and possibilities.
If a belief about life excludes any human experience, person or
group, then it cannot be ‘the truth’, it is only the truth <i>for some people</i>. While there may not be one single meaningful way
to live life, there is a universal point to it and it isn’t to gain reward, to
compete for survival or even to procreate. There is only one thing that we <i>all</i> have in common and that is that we
are here experiencing life as human beings; we all exist at this point in time. Therefore it seems the point of life is simply<i> to experience being human</i> and any other purpose we give our time here is merely a
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Once we accept that the point of living is simply to
experience being human, then life suddenly becomes a lot simpler and less
divisive. When we are able to take a step back, even the most abhorrent experiences
or actions become just another colourful pattern in the giant kaleidoscope of
experience we call ‘being human’. If a human being is doing it or feeling it then
it is a valid human experience no matter how much we dislike it. The experience
of being human will <i>always</i> contain both
positive and negative aspects, the problem arises when we attach moral judgements
to the intrinsic polarity of our existence and label positive experiences as ‘good’ and negative as ‘bad’. When we make such moral
judgements, we start to separate experiences into those we will accept and those we
reject and fight against and this naturally
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Somewhere along the line, we lost sight of the fact that experiences
are essentially neither good nor bad, they just <i>are</i>. There are positive and negative aspects to every human
experience; nothing can be experienced as purely positive or negative. It is
impossible to blot out or eradicate the negative aspects of life, yet this is
precisely what we seem to spend most of our time trying to do. We don’t want any pain,
illness or suffering and we judge particularly harshly anyone we deem to have
caused such things. Of course I am not suggesting that we should tolerate or ignore
destructive behaviour amongst our fellows, but we can learn how to put up healthy boundaries, both personally and culturally, <i>without
stepping into moral judgement</i>. Saying ‘this is not acceptable and if you do
this, these will be consequences’ is very different from saying ‘you are a bad/evil person and you must be punished, humiliated or obliterated’. </div>
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As Jesus once said;
let person who has not sinned cast the first stone. However, this Christian
understanding that we are all sinners has unfortunately often been misconstrued to mean that we are
all <i>bad</i> and intrinsically guilty,
ashamed and worthless so everyone is busy trying to pass the buck. What it actually means is <i>no one is perfect</i> and therefore no one is qualified to ‘play God’
and sit in judgement of anyone else. We are all capable of selfish, destructive
behaviour and of making mistakes (sinning) and if we want the world to be a
more loving place we would do well to focus on cleaning up our own side of the
fence rather than casting aspersions, scapegoating or blaming others for the
messes in our individual lives or the world as a whole.</div>
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Acceptance of ourselves and others becomes a whole lot
easier when we let go of any moral judgements about the meaning of life. If the point of life is simply <i>to be</i>, then every ‘sin’ against us can ultimately be forgiven because feeling pain is just part of the human experience.
When we maintain strong, loving boundaries with appropriate consequences for transgressions
on both a personal or social level, there is no longer a need for the revenge,
retribution or humiliating punishment and
we become free to give our energy to something far more productive than trying to
eradicate evil. And if we accept that the point of life is to experience it to the full, warts
and all, then we also become free to give our individual lives any meaning we choose
without fear of judgement or punishment for ‘getting it wrong’; if the 'point of
life' is simply to experience it, then
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Snowy Owlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14913828466236719023noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4663662859161039251.post-65315363239473198422013-06-28T06:12:00.000-07:002013-06-28T06:34:02.619-07:00How Do We Know When It Is Time To Walk Away?<span style="color: magenta;"><span style="font-size: medium;"><i><b>'While it is a challenge for any individual soul to swim against the collective tide, thankfully the collective tide is now turning towards equality and personal freedom.' Freja</b></i></span></span><i><span style="color: magenta;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"> </span>♥</span></i><br />
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While there are many benefits to 'staying the course' and to being loyal and committed, sometimes we reach a point where we must 'walk away' from a relationship or situation. We can spend many weeks, months or sometimes even years feeling unsure and undecided about whether to 'stay or go'. So, how can we tell when it is time to walk away?</div>
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It was not so very long ago that people were expected to simply 'put up with' their lot in life and it seems that having the ability to do this is still regarded as being a sign of inner strength and fortitude. While sometimes this truly is the case, more often than not the desire to 'stick it out' comes not from inner strength but from feelings of fear.</div>
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This rather popular expression suggests that ultimately we are always caught between a rock and a hard place; that even if we manage to escape some awful reality, there is nothing better available to us so we may as well just 'put up and shut up'. Or, as a rather forthright Headmaster once advised me to do when I was really struggling as a teacher; 'go home, have a stiff drink, then come back tomorrow and get your head down.' 'Ah', I thought to myself, 'so that's where I have been going wrong all my life!'</div>
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Over the last hundred years or so, we have been moving into a more 'liberated' age, a time when people feel compelled to break free of oppression and enslavement. This process is all part of evolution of Humanity which is pushing us more and more urgently toward spiritual freedom. However, until we are ready to fully experience liberation and have found a way to integrate it into our lives, it can seem like all we are doing is trying to run away from something we <i>ought</i> to be able to accept.</div>
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The closer you get to reaching spiritual freedom, the greater your intolerance of power abuse becomes, however minor, subtle or unintentional. As your inner journey brings you closer to personal liberation, you become increasingly sensitive to how others respond to and affect your energy. While it would be so much easier to function 'normally', the 'normal' lack of sensitivity is actually due to <span lang="en-GB">desensitisation</span> caused by thousands of years of oppression and layer upon layer of cultural denial.</div>
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Snowy Owlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14913828466236719023noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4663662859161039251.post-34340406515764945552013-06-16T12:44:00.000-07:002013-06-16T12:44:11.700-07:00Why Do People Feel Shame About Being Single?<span style="color: magenta;"><span style="font-size: medium;"><i>'The best way to deal with shame is to talk about whatever it is that makes you squirm and want to hide under the blanket.'</i></span></span><br />
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We live in a society where individuals are free to choose all aspects of their life style. Gone are the days when a woman was passed from father to husband like a prized jewel or a marketable cow. Gone are the days of shot gun weddings, 'illegitimate' children, and the the fear of becoming an old maid at the tender age of 25. When it comes to sex and marriage, society has changed beyond all recognition, <i>so why is it that people still feel so much shame about being single?</i></div>
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I used to think it was 'natural loneliness' that drove me to join one online agency after another and endure endless dates with men who were completely devoid of even the most rudimentary manners. But after the ending of my most recent relationship I was reminded once again of an inescapable truth: There is nothing more lonely than living with someone who doesn't love you - at least when you're single you're free to focus your time and attention on people who <i>do</i> love and care for you. After the initial shock and grief of the latest break up I thought I'd finally cracked it: I was happy <i>and</i> single – and <i>if </i>one day a lovely man should come along, he knew he would be the cherry on the cake not the eggs, milk and flour.</div>
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This may sound harsh but that is exactly what I discovered lurking in the core of my being when I stripped away all the layers of 'perfectly natural' loneliness, the urgent desire for sex, the feeling that <i>something is missing</i> and the wistful belief in my very own 'happy ever after'. And, knowing as many single women as I do, I also know I am far from alone in experiencing this insidious, excruciating shame. Are women really are free of the shackles of social control, or has the oppression has simply been sublimated and hidden from view, making us think we are now <i>choosing</i> to go bonkers in the quest for His love?</div>
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Things are difficult for men too, after all we all live together in this shame based society. If a man manages to cleverly avoid being 'tied down' by a woman, then he is expected to be out there having sex with everyone and anyone, (as long, of course, as it is not with someone wearing pig tails or long shorts which is the only sexually addicted behaviour that is frowned upon these days.) I have met many men who have no interest in 'sleeping around' but who feel shame about not having done it – as if this would have somehow made him more of a man.</div>
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Despite the 1960s 'sexual revolution', it appears that women and men are still carrying huge amounts of shame about their sexuality. We can't simply <i>be</i>, instead we have to constantly find ways to prove our sexual worth. The shape and form of the shame many vary between the sexes, and even between individuals – but it is always there; ugly, pervasive and cunningly well hidden. That's the problem with shame, it lurks in the shadows and is such an uncomfortable feeling most of us will do <i>anything</i> to hide it, even from ourselves.</div>
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A wise person once told me; <i>shame doesn't live in the light</i> and I have discovered that they were absolutely right. The best way to deal with shame is to talk about whatever makes you squirm and want to hide under the blanket. I was shocked to discover that not only do I feel ashamed of being single, but I also feel deeply ashamed that in this day and age, I can still feel this way. (I should have more self respect than that!) But I'd much rather own up to my feelings of shame than continue pretending that I am experiencing one of the more socially acceptable feelings of loneliness, horniness, wanting a baby or some dreamy notion of being rescued.</div>
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I wonder how many of us are running around sleeping with strangers, going on endless disappointing dates or slowly suffocating in painful, unloving relationships just because <i>we are afraid of feeling ashamed</i>? (Ashamed of not being 'man enough' or of not being cheerfully claimed and taken off The Shelf.) Maybe if we started admitting to our feelings of shame we could finally begin to heal the buried wounds caused by thousands of years of social-sexual oppression. Perhaps we could begin to experience true freedom from the realisation that none of us have anything to prove to anyone through our sexual encounters or relationships with others. After all, <i>true self acceptance can only come from letting go of external judgements and living a life that is true to oneself.</i></div>
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Freja <span style="color: magenta;">♥</span> © November 2011</div>
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Additional note for <i>Manifesting Mr Wonderful</i> readers:</div>
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There is absolutely nothing shameful about wanting a positive loving relationship or to meet the right man. However, I highly recommend checking to see if you are motivated by feelings of shame about being single or if this shame is hidden somewhere in your unconscious because <i>it will only stand in the way of you manifesting what you want</i>. I now believe this 'shame of being single' plays a major role in blocking women's ability to manifest positive relationships; there really is nothing more effective at lowering your vibration <i>and</i> your standards. Shame is an incredibly powerful emotion and our unconscious fear of it can lead us far away from self caring decisions. If we really want to raise our energetic vibration then we must begin by confronting any conscious or hidden reservoirs of shame.</div>
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F <span style="color: magenta;">♥</span></div>
Snowy Owlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14913828466236719023noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4663662859161039251.post-36494069163222855812013-01-29T06:35:00.002-08:002013-02-01T03:44:27.735-08:00Imbolc 2013: Initiating of the Age of Aquarius So, here we
are in 2013 and still in one piece! <a href="http://www.thewhitegoddess.co.uk/the_wheel_of_the_year/imbolc.asp"><span style="color: magenta;">The Celtic Fire Festival Imbolc</span></a> will soon
be upon us, the initiatory awakening for the next 26,000 year cycle. As I
predicted, there were no Hollywood style catastrophes on the Solstice, but that
doesn't mean that ‘nothing happened’. All it means is that what is happening is
happening energetically and predominantly on an inner level. People are
changing on the <i>inside</i> and all
changes of consciousness eventually ripple out and manifest in the outer world.
One only has to look at the public outcry in India in response to one (sadly
not uncommon) extremely violent sexual act to see the tide is already turning. That
sort of collective reaction can only come about when the seeds of change have
already grown strong within the human psyche because all social and political
reform begins with people inwardly ‘waking up’.<br />
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Now that the
door has energetically been closed on the Old Way, the established powers will
find it increasingly difficult to control and manipulate the populous. Those
individuals who continue to attempt to abuse and dominate whether out of fear
or an active desire for power will find they are no longer supported by the
blanket denial and collusion of collective. I predict over the next few years
there will be many more dramatic, shocking ‘falls from grace’ for those high
profile individuals and individuals who are abusing their power. Ordinary individuals
will also find it increasingly difficult to tolerate repression or abuse whether
within their personal relationships or in the outside world. As a result of
this awakening, there will be many more uprisings, riots, revolutions and a
general feeling of social unrest. But rather than fearing the chaos, we must
embrace it <i>for the chains of collective
slavery must be broken if we are to find a way to build a peaceful, egalitarian
future for humanity</i>. <o:p></o:p></div>
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So what can
we personally do to help ‘bring in’ the New Age? Well there are many things we
can do, but it is useful to begin with <i>setting
our intentions</i>. While Solstice 2012 was about finally releasing ‘that which
no longer works’, Imbolc 2013 is about identifying what you want to manifest and
<i>opening yourself to receive it</i>. We
may want to focus our intentions on world peace, and this is a worthy cause.
However, world peace requires happy individuals and to achieve this we must turn
our thoughts <i>toward inner peace</i>.
Often we focus on all the chaos and pain ‘out there’ and forget that ‘out
there’ is simply a manifestation of what exists ‘in here’. Yes, we need to be aware of
what goes on in the world and to contribute to making a difference in whatever
way we can. However, if we fixate on the state of the world instead of looking
within we will be frustrated in our efforts because ultimately <i>we only have power over ourselves</i>. <o:p></o:p></div>
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Attachment
to trying to fix other people or circumstances ‘out there’ is often a
distraction from dealing with our own inner issues. If you feel unhappy,
scared, lost, confused or uncomfortable being alone (with no distractions), I
highly recommend that you make healing your own inner state of being your No.1
priority and trust that world peace will be the eventual natural outcome of
this. The pain, abuse and suffering that we would all like to see come to an
end stems from <i>inner</i> conflict and
disconnection from Source. As Ghandi said ‘Be the change you want to see’ – and
to do this you will need a strong, positive, loving relationship with your
Self. <o:p></o:p></div>
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It is often much harder to look within than it is to focus on the outside world because of how we are taught to behave as children. It
is the job of our caregivers to teach us how to be responsible in our
actions <i>while remaining true to ourselves.</i> When we are taught to blindly ‘do as we are told’ for their reward or approval rather than to find a responsible way to be true to ourselves, we develop a <a href="http://www.coda-uk.org/"><span style="color: magenta;"><b>codependent</b></span></a> approach to life – we learn to live
our lives <i>through others</i>. In this
codependent state we must please, placate, manipulate and control to get our
needs met, because we have not developed the skills or awareness to relate to and
nurture our inner selves directly. In severely codependent states, we are so
removed from our inner selves that we are really do not know who we are, how we
feel or what we need except in relation to other people. This extremely
frightening and powerless existence creates the compulsion to control and
manipulate others in an attempt to make ourselves feel better. Give someone
with no ability to know, love and care for themselves political or corporate power
and they will take their inner battle for control onto the world stage. <i>This is how wars start</i>.<o:p></o:p></div>
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While we cannot change the unstable, egocentric individuals
who are in power, we can change ourselves.
And when we change ourselves we <i>automatically</i>
show others what must be done to heal. As more people connect to their inner ‘authentic’
selves, we will naturally begin to choose leaders who mirror our personal
integrity. For this to happen we must STOP abusing ourselves on every level; we
must learn how to care for our bodies and minds and re-connect with our
emotional and spiritual selves. Self-care may seem ‘selfish’, but actually
people only become ‘selfish’ and egocentric when they don’t know how to meet
their own needs. Once we can lovingly care for ourselves, the need to control,
manipulate or abuse others evaporates. <o:p></o:p></div>
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So, if you really
want to see love on a global level then make it your intention to lovingly care
for yourself, <i>no matter what</i>. If you
want to see world peace, then take time to heal the conflicts within your own
fractured psyche. If you want those in power to be more responsible, start
taking responsibility for your own neglected needs, whatever they may be. If
you want other people to start treating you better, then it is time to treat
yourself with more consideration and respect. If you want people to love you
more, then learn how to deeply and unconditionally love yourself. Whatever you
feel most attached to seeing change ‘out there’, whether in the larger world or
in the people you know is <i>exactly what
you need to start giving to yourself</i>.
And giving yourself what you need is <i>exactly
how you will change the world</i>, because a world full of happy self-caring
people is a world full of people who have so much more to give.<o:p></o:p></div>
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<b>Want to celebrate
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True<a href="http://www.goddessandgreenman.co.uk/imbolc_candlemas"> <b style="background-color: white;"><span style="color: magenta;">Imbolc</span></b></a><b> </b>takes place whenever the Sun reaches 15 degrees Aquarius, which can occur on different
dates from year to year. Traditionally it is celebrated on the 2<sup>nd</sup>
of February but this year Imbolc actually takes place on the 3<sup>rd</sup> at 4.14pm
GMT. If you would like to do a ceremony to celebrate beginning of the New Great
Year and/or to ritualise your intentions, Sunday the 3<sup>rd</sup> would be
the best day. Imbolc is all about cleansing and renewal so a good place to
visit would be where there is naturally vibrant running water, preferably a
spring, waterfall or a lively bubbling brook. Lighting a fire is also an
important component of honouring the<a href="http://www.brigidsflame.com/brigid.html" style="background-color: white;"><span style="color: magenta;"> <b>Goddess Brigit</b></span></a> on Her special day. If you
want more information about how to celebrate or ritualise Imbolc, there is
plenty of information online. Whatever you decide to do on Sunday the 3rd, find
a way to open your heart to all the wonderful new possibilities of the Aquarian
Age and New Great Year. Enjoy!<o:p></o:p></div>
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Freja <o:p></o:p><span style="background-color: #fdfafe; color: #333333; font-family: Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif; line-height: 18px;"> </span><span style="background-color: #fdfafe; color: #333333; font-family: Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif; line-height: 18px;"><i><span style="color: magenta;">♥</span></i></span></div>
Snowy Owlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14913828466236719023noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4663662859161039251.post-48299059864462755692012-12-20T11:35:00.001-08:002012-12-20T11:40:55.433-08:00Winter Solstice 2012 Preparations and Ritual Guide<br />
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">Tomorrow is
the last Winter Solstice of this Great Year and marks the end a 26,000 year
cycle of human spiritual evolution. On this special day, we will finally close
the door on the Old Way, on Humanity’s long period of separation from the Goddess.
<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">While
tomorrow is a day to celebrate this incredible ending, it is also a solemn day.
During this period Humanity has been on a huge rollercoaster ride of ups and
downs and all souls have experienced great pain and suffering along the way. All
that pain and suffering is not going to magically evaporate on the last day of
the Great Year, but it does mean that dealing with it will gradually become much
easier. In a way, tomorrow is like the end of a huge war that has lasted
thousands of years –and like with any war, after the euphoria of ‘victory’
comes the big clean up. So, while we have achieved something momentous that
needs celebrating, it is also important that we take a moment during the day to
acknowledge the suffering that so many people are still living with. <o:p></o:p></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">Many people
have been asking me what we can do to ritualise the Solstice and what time the actual
event is. Some people will celebrate as the sun comes up, as they do the Summer
Solstice but the exact timing of the Solstice is the moment that the Sun enters
the sign of Capricorn. This will happen at 11.12am GMT – the last minute being
11.11 to 11.12!<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">While it
would be entirely fitting to have a celebration or party it would be highly beneficial
to symbolically ‘close the door’ on the Old Way and to take time to pray for world
peace before Humanity moves on to the next 26,000 year cycle. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Sunrise – 11.11am</b> (GMT) <o:p></o:p></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">This would
be a good time to perform cleansing and purification rituals both for yourself
and for Humanity as a whole.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">Symbolically
or in your mind’s eye ‘close the door’ on the Old Way. You may even want to visualise
the whole of Humanity joining together to close a huge door on pain, poverty
and suffering.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">Once the
door is closed make a silent, spoken or sung prayer for World Peace.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">Welcome in
the new 26,000 year cycle by wishing people a ‘Happy New Great Year!’ <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">Then celebrate
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">If you live
in another country, work out your Winter Solstice plans according to your time
zone, making sure you perform cleansing rituals beforehand then the door closing
and minute prayer at the <b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">11.11 am GMT</b>
<b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">equivalent</b>, and conduct your celebrations
any time thereafter. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><o:p></o:p></span><br />
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<b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">Cleansing Ritual<o:p></o:p></span></span></b></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">If you feel
you would like to conduct a cleansing ritual, you can choose any activity that
feels meaningful to you. The activity you choose is less important than the <b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">intension</i></b>
you use when you do it. Here are some suggestions:<o:p></o:p></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">1. Write a
list of all things you would like humanity to let go of then burn them (please
be careful how/where you do this!)<o:p></o:p></span><br />
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smudging or incense to cleanse yourself or environment<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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have crystals, cleanse them in water. It is especially good if you can do this
in a fresh spring, stream, river or water fall <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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mini spring clean in your home – hoover, de-clutter, empty rubbish etc.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">6. Conduct a
short fast from daybreak or midnight on the 20<sup><span style="font-size: x-small;">th</span></sup> until 11.12am on
the 21<sup><span style="font-size: x-small;">st</span></sup> <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">7. Light a
candle and say a prayer asking Humanity to be cleansed of the past<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<o:p><span style="font-family: Calibri;"> </span></o:p></div>
<span style="font-family: Calibri;">See you on
the Other Side!<o:p></o:p></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 11pt; line-height: 115%; mso-ansi-language: EN-GB; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-bidi; mso-fareast-font-family: Calibri; mso-fareast-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">Freja <span style="font-size: x-small;"><i><span style="color: magenta;">♥</span></i></span></span>Snowy Owlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14913828466236719023noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4663662859161039251.post-29703987003350882252012-12-11T13:32:00.001-08:002012-12-11T13:57:48.894-08:00The Festival of the Returning Goddess<div style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
In 10 days we will come to the end of a
remarkable and terrifying 26,000 year long journey which has taken
humanity to the heights of creative power and the depths of spiritual despair. Humanity's period of separation from The
Goddess will come to a definitive close on Winter Solstice 2012. This
is not to say there will be an immediate change or a sudden end to
suffering, all it means is that a period of intense learning has been
completed and we will now begin our journey back into the Light,
<i>here on planet earth</i>.</div>
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Many people believe our suffering is a
sign that human beings are 'bad' or have made some kind of terrible
mistake but we have simply been experiencing the growing pains that come with a <i>developmental stage</i>. Mother
Earth is a physical expression of the Divine Feminine and Humanity
carries the spark of the Divine Masculine Spirit which seeks to
expand, grow and to <i>understand itself as as something separate</i>.
Therefore, Humanity is essentially the 'boy child' of the Earth
Goddess. (In Biblical terms Mary represents the Mother Goddess and
Jesus her human son who must leave her behind so he can Ascend to
'Heaven' and be with his Father God.)
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Every boy must break his attachment
with the feminine in order to develop into a mature, autonomous man.
Boys go through a bewildering and often painful period of separation
from their mother (and from girls) in order to define their
masculinity. During this period they often differentiate themselves
from all things feminine in order to feel more rooted in their
masculinity. Separation from the feminine is also marked by power struggles and hierarchical initiation rites which take place between boys as they struggle to define their masculine power amongst peers.</div>
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During these years of separation, boys
are free to develop their masculine identity, power and their
autonomous 'otherness'. Once this process of differentiation is
complete, the Divine Feminine pulls them back with intense sexual
urges that call them like a siren song. Having successfully broken
free from The Mother aspect of the feminine, the masculine then seeks
to reunite with the feminine through sexual union with The Maiden
aspect of The Goddess. During Humanity's separation, men were trying to
leave the Mother but not yet mature enough to join with the Consort
aspect of the Divine Feminine <i>as equals</i>. This meant that men's sexual relationships with women were often conflicted and dominated by the mother/ whore complex. (Men who are
attracted to other men either identify primarily with the masculine
principle and search for 'femininity' in other men or they identify
with the feminine principle, even though they are incarnated in a
masculine body. The converse is true for women who are attracted to
other women.)
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Humanity is ready to let go of the power struggle <i>against the feminine </i><span style="font-style: normal;">because
we </span>have successfully defined our 'masculinity'. Humanity has
come of age; it has developed its autonomous power and formed an
identity which is quite separate from the Mother Goddess. In the last
100 years humanity reached its ultimate 'masculine' power by becoming
capable of destroying Earth and being able to leave by going into
space. This is akin to a boy reaching the stage where he knows he can
physically overcome his once all powerful mother and when he knows he
must leave home and find his own way. When he reaches this point, he
knows he has left his boyhood behind and become a man. (Check out
Space Odyssey 2001 for an wonderfully insightful film about this
human/masculine plight.)</div>
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The <span style="font-style: normal;">process
of separation</span> has been a <i>collective experience</i> that we
have all been equally involved in. It is important to acknowledge
that every human soul has incarnated on both sides of this power
imbalance which means at some point in our journey we have all
experienced being both abusers and victims. For any genuine healing
to take place, we must eventually develop compassion and forgiveness for our collective suffering.
Ultimately, it is the willingness to come out of denial, heal and forgive
that will lead us all to an evolved Higher Consciousness. Jesus was able to forgive those who betrayed,
oppressed, tortured and murdered him because <i>he understood that his
oppressors were spiritual children who did not understand what they
were doing.</i>
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<div style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
Masculinity is not innately 'bad', but
left unchecked by the balancing feminine counterpart, it will ultimately become destructive. At some point the masculine needs to
consciously channel the power it has attained through separation <i>back
into the feminine</i> so that balance can be restored. Both
feminine and masculine powers are required for a peaceful
world based on equality and for this to be made possible, women will
need to step into their power and men will need to welcome 'feminine'
leadership qualities in women and within themselves. It doesn't mean
things should turn into an inverted Patriarchy where women are 'in
charge', it is simply that men will have to humbly step down from their
pedestal and women will have to rise up to meet them in the middle.
</div>
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<br /></div>
<div style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
We can go no further in our separation
from the Mother Goddess or the Divine Feminine. The process of
separation is like an elastic band that eventually stretches to
capacity and now it must be released or it will snap. Humanity has
reached this 'breaking point' and the next Great Year will be about
our path of Return. In many ways we are in a very precarious position
and many aspects of our current existence will 'snap' or be lost.
However, anything we have created that no longer serves us <i>needs</i>
to break so we can be released and begin our journey of return.
This 'break down' phase is also part of the plan and is not to be
feared because ultimately <i>it will bring new growth</i>.
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<br /></div>
<div style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
During the period of separation, The
Goddess has taken on the Crone aspect of the Divine Feminine and
submerged Herself into darkness. We have been lost to her and She has
been lost to us. But as we begin to come back down to Earth, Her inner light is rising up to meet us. The fire festival Imbolc at the beginning of February brings with it the
first signs that the Light is returning and the Goddess is stirring
beneath the harsh winter landscape. Imbolc 2013 welcomes the Returning Goddess who will bring Light and warmth to us all –
not just after this year's winter, <i>but after a winter that has
lasted many thousands of years and has caused much human suffering.
</i><span style="font-style: normal;"> </span></div>
<div style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
<br />
<span style="font-size: x-small;"><i><span style="color: magenta;"></span></i></span>
</div>
<div style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
I will be celebrating this auspicous date as the 'Festival of
the Returning Goddess' over the whole weekend of the 1<sup>st</sup>, 2<sup>nd</sup>
and 3<sup>rd</sup> of February and I really hope you will join me... </div>
<div style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
<br /></div>
<div style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
Freja <span style="font-size: small;"><i><span style="color: magenta;">♥</span></i> </span></div>
<div style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
<span style="font-size: x-small;"><i></i></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: x-small;"><i></i></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: x-small;"><i><span style="color: magenta;"></span></i></span>
</div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-GB;">Since I began writing this blog, my understanding of 2012 and the objectives
of this website have evolved beyond all recognition. Initially I thought I was
going be recording insights and general observations while encouraging others
to take on the 2012 ‘spiritual challenge’. However, almost as soon as I
committed to writing MissionPossible2012, my personal world began falling apart
on a major scale. Suddenly I found myself right in the middle of the 2012
process instead of simply observing it. I wonder if perhaps unconsciously I
had committed to writing this blog to help me remain conscious during the
challenging process I was about to undertake...</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">A few weeks after I began this blog, I had a major break up with <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">Mr
Wonderful</i> – the ‘spiritually aware’ man I felt I had been waiting for all
my life. After two years together, I was devastated to discover our
relationship was a long way from ‘conscious’ but rather it was based on mutual
dependency which was cleverly covered up with fantasy and illusion. Then soon after we split, I
reached breaking point with (most of) my family and finally walked away after
years of trying to work things out and find a resolution. Shortly after
this I suffered a second severe prolapsed disc that landed me in hospital and
required urgent spinal surgery. When I came out of hospital to recuperate in
October 2011, I thought I had reached rock bottom in my life and would soon be on the
way back up, just in time for the arrival of 2012. I thought there
couldn’t possibly be any more for me to have to face up to and deal with. How
wrong was I!!! </span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-GB;">I began
2012 with the worst depression and anxiety of my life. I had severe mood swings
which went from suicidal to homicidal and I felt complete terror whenever I
thought about my future. Though these feelings were triggered by my
hospitalisation and all the painkillers, all they had done was lift the
lid and reveal the underlying hopelessness and pain I had been carrying deep
within me since childhood. I felt like I had fallen off the edge of the earth.
I had no sense of security, purpose or direction and I felt completely powerless
to do anything about it. I couldn’t believe I had been struggling with my
healing for over 20 years only to end up single, childless, jobless and
incapacitated the age of 40. Hardly a Beacon of Light for
Humanity!</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">In this sorry
state I psychically ‘called’ an ex. Sure enough, 5 weeks later I received an email.
We had not had any contact for about three years, but he had searched for me online and found my email address. In 2007 I had resolutely walked away from our (extremely)
dysfunctional on-off relationship in search of <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">Mr Wonderful</i>. However, I had not yet reached an inner resolution; I
had simply put my intense desire for him in a securely padlocked box and hidden it under the bed
for safe keeping. Despite the enormous difficulties in our relationship, I still held
onto our ‘special’ psychic bond and believed us to be soul mates that just
couldn’t be together in the physical world. </span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB"><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"></span>I would have never psychically called him to
me if I hadn’t have been in such a weakened state, but as it turned out, I
did need to take that carefully stored box out from under the bed and take another
look inside. When he contacted me I wasn’t at all surprised and though I was
extremely wary of getting involved again, I made the decision to <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">consciously engage with my desire</i> to
find out what it was really made of. When I opened my heart to him
without reservation I discovered to my dismay that our special bond was yet
another fantasy based on dependency and power struggles that I was no longer
interested in. So after eight years of intense attraction, I was finally
able to let him go.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-GB;"><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"></span>In 12 months I had lost the two most significant
loves of my life. Once I let them go I found that I also lost the flame of inner desire, something
that had been keeping me going all through my adult life. Never had I felt so completely
and utterly cut off from the opposite sex. As this second relationship came to a final
close, I knew that I had to move house and find a way to sort out my working
life and finances, so when my back started to get bad again, I plummeted into
an even deeper level of despair. On one level I understood I must still be in the process, it’s just I just couldn't understand what God wanted from me – it was
like I was being asked to survive on thin air. I truly felt that if things were to keep going the way they were, I just wasn’t going to make it.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-GB;">At the end
of August 2012 I finally did hit rock bottom, a rock bottom I discovered, that had been
following me around like a shadow since childhood. I had spent my life trying to out smart it,
but it was always there right beside me. I had to face my deepest fears and I
had to have everything in my life stripped away from me before I would be able to do it. I had asked for this experience because I wanted to heal and
I was clearly ready for it, but that didn’t stop my terrified ego fighting every
step of the way. But on the 23<sup>rd</sup> of August, I finally gave in to it;
<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">I allowed myself to die</i>. I realised I
didn’t need to physically die to bring my suffering to a final conclusion, I
saw that I could allow myself to die and be reborn on a spiritual level. All I
had to do was give up the struggle to
survive and control and<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"> hand myself and my life over completely to the care of The Goddess.</i></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-GB;">For nearly
2 years I was gripped in Her birth canal being squeezed with
increasingly excruciating, terrifying contractions. Somehow I had managed to survive
the re-birthing process and I am sure that being aware of the 2012
Ascension process provided me with an anchor. As soon as I had completed my re-birthing,
my life began to move forward again. I still didn’t have any idea where I
needed to be or what I needed to be doing, so I asked for guidance and waited. Within three weeks I received three dreams all showing me that I needed to move back to
Bristol, so I figured that this was whaty I must do. I had very mixed feelings about doing this but I had put my life into
the hands of The Goddess and trusted the guidance I was given. Within
two months of my Shamanic death, I was welcomed back to Bristol with open arms and my back was
better than it had been in over 3 years.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-GB;">Though the actual
move unfolded perfectly, inwardly I was screaming. I had been holed up by myself
in the countryside for months on end spending most of my time connecting with nature,
Spirit and myself. Despite my isolation and foreboding about the future, I actually
felt extremely comfortable and safe in my cosy flat surrounded by trees and beautiful
countryside. I was feeling extremely sensitive, anti social and resistant and yet
Spirit was clearly guiding me to move to back to the city. When I first arrived
I felt like a new born overwhelmed with the noise and the lights and the
people, and like a new born I screamed and cried with the shock. But I knew in my heart that I was exactly
where I was meant to be and that in time I would adjust... <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB"> <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-GB;">All the time I have been writing this blog I have been wanting to get my own process ‘out of the way’ so I could get on with helping
other people. What I didn’t realise was that MissionPossible2012
was really all about getting <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">myself</i>
through the process – a process I had absolutely no understanding of until I had
seen it through to completion. Part of the reason I was in such a hurry was
because I believed ‘it’ would all be over by the end of 2012 but now I can see
with absolute clarity that ‘it’ will only actually begin <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">after</i> the event, in the Spring of 2013. And I have also come to see
that there is absolutely no urgency and no deadline to try to meet, because <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">everything is unfolding exactly as it should</i>. </span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">So, it seems this
blog has fulfilled its mission 17 days ahead of time as I am already preparing for what comes next, for Imbolc 2013 and the Returning Goddess. It would also seem that the blog MissionPossible2012 is ready to evolve into
something new... so watch this space!</span></div>
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Freja <span style="font-size: small;"> </span><span style="font-size: small;"> <i><span style="color: magenta;">♥</span></i></span></div>
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Snowy Owlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14913828466236719023noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4663662859161039251.post-7533337169494422342012-12-02T03:31:00.002-08:002012-12-02T03:32:51.358-08:002012 Event in Bristol<b>2012: Aliens, Armaggedon or an Almighty Anti-Climax?</b> Come and find out what 2012 is <i>really</i> all about...<br />
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Author, Shamanic healer and 2012 blogger Freja Shamanka shares her insights and vision for the future - <i>just in time for the big event!</i><br />
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£3 (Suggested donation) <br />
<br />
Talk @ The Arts House, Stokes Croft, Bristol<br />
Wed 12.12.12 at 7.30pm<br />
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Refreshments available at the cafe bar; SPECIAL deal mulled wine and veggie hot pot £5 <br />
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Facebook Event: http://www.facebook.com/events/386143551467013/ <br />
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<br />Snowy Owlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14913828466236719023noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4663662859161039251.post-80951147118554915952012-11-29T14:27:00.001-08:002012-11-30T04:12:24.363-08:00The Doorway to the New Age<style type="text/css">
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</style> On the 21<sup>st</sup> of December
2012, the door will finally close on the last 26,000 years of human
experience, the last <i>Great Year</i>. '2012' marks a collective
shift of consciousness which is the natural result of the process of
spiritual learning we have gone through during this long period. By
'spiritual learning' I mean the lessons, the struggles and the
development of consciousness that has arisen
directly out of our painful separation from Source. I say 'Source'
because if I say 'God', it has certain connotations which can be
misleading, because the 'god' we have been separating from is the
<i>feminine</i> aspect, T<span style="font-style: normal;">he
Goddess – </span><i>the mother from which we all came</i>.
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Although this Great Year has culminated
in the most unimaginable suffering, the process we have been through
has all been part of evolution of Humanity. Even though mind boggling
atrocities continue to be committed by one human being against
another every second of every day, <i>a deep and lasting change in
human consciousness has already occurred</i>.
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This can be hard to believe because as
we begin to notice and talk about these abuses, they appear to be
increasing. Actually <span style="font-style: normal;">they are not,
</span><i>we are just more aware of them and of the dire consequences
they cause</i>. One only has to think back to the time of the Roman
Empire, Henry the VIII, or even the beginning of last Century to see
that life in the West is nowhere near as brutal or (overtly)
oppressive. We are coming out of denial about these abuses and the
truth we have to face up to is deeply shocking and painful. The
process of coming out of denial always feels worse because it was the
denial that was protecting us from the pain.
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One also only has to go back 100 years
to also see that the human spirit is waking up to these abuses of
power and collectively we are beginning to do something about it. Of
course we still have a very long way to go to change our conditioned
beliefs about power and to clear up the mess, but change <i>is</i>
happening and that change is accelerating at an unprecedented speed.
(We may think things are going slowly because we who are alive today
have only ever known rapid change. But actually the last 300 years
have seen more social and technological advancement than the entire
previous 26,000 period. Comparatively, things are changing at
lightening speed.)
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So, you may well be wondering, what has
all this got to do with the Goddess? Well, the answer to this is very
simple. Around 26,000 years ago humanity began the journey of
separation from the Great Mother <i>so that we could develop
consciousness</i>. (In Biblical terms this separation from The
Goddess was The Fall from Eden.) Just as a child must separate from
it's mother to develop into an autonomous conscious adult, humanity
has had to separate from the Great Mother that gave form to us all.
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Human childhood involves a far more
difficult task than simply learning how to physically survive. From a
young age, children begin the incredibly complex struggle to define
the Self, to discover personal power and to develop conscious awareness. During the last 26,000
years, Humanity as a whole has been going through this painful process
of growing up and of developing consciousness. For that process to have been able to take place, the separation from the Great Mother and all the power struggles were
<i>absolutely necessary</i>.
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At the end of 2012, this process of
separation will come to an end because <i>we have gone as far as we
needed to go</i>. As soon as Humanity became capable of destroying our Earth Mother and to leave Her by going into space, we
ceased to be children. That is not to say
we have reached full adult maturity, (far from it!) but we have <i>come of age</i>.
This means we are ready for the next stage in our development which
involves learning the responsible use of our power and how to form <i>equal
unions with 'the other'</i>. We are not about to return to the
prehistoric Mother Goddess days, we are returning to Her as evolved
beings who have completed a process of self actualisation. As we
return to the Goddess, we seek to re-unite with Her as
conscious, empowered adults.
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In the next stage of our spiritual
development will learn how to re-balance all the polarities
that were created by The Separation, <i>without losing the gifts of
individuality and diversity</i>. We will discover how to balance woman with man,
masculine with feminine and Earth with Heaven. We will re-learn how to dig spiritual roots deep into the Earth so we can gain strength from Her as we continue
reaching for the stars. We will begin to understand that opposites are just two
sides of the same coin and that we have all lived out <i>both sides</i> on a soul level. We will learn how to relate to <i>'the
other'</i> as an equal and how to conduct conscious, liberated sexual relationhsips. </div>
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But for all of this
to become possible, we must first reawaken the Divine Feminine which had to be supressed for The Separation to occur. We must seek ways to incorporate Her into every aspect of our personal and
collective lives. Once the door to the Old Way is closed on Winter Solstice 2012, we will be completely free to
open the door to the Returning Goddess. However, the new door will not
open to Her on the 21<sup>st</sup> December nor on the day after because we
must pause to reflect and purify ourselves during the winter before we begin moving forward in the spring. <span style="color: magenta;"><i><b>The
door to the New Age, the new Great Year and the Returning Goddess
will open as the 'baton of light' is passed to the Goddess Brigit at
the first signs of spring. This happens on Imbolc 2013 which next year falls on
the 3</b></i></span><span style="color: magenta;"><sup><i><b>rd</b></i></sup></span><span style="color: magenta;"><i><b>
of February. </b></i></span>
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Now that will be a day that is worth
celebrating!<br />
<br />
Freja <span style="font-size: xx-small;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><i><span style="color: magenta;">♥</span></i></span></span> </div>
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Snowy Owlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14913828466236719023noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4663662859161039251.post-33148183848887022082012-11-25T12:00:00.000-08:002012-11-29T09:15:47.651-08:00The Dark Goddess and the Floods<style type="text/css">
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All I can say is WOW. Crew's Hole Road
has been closed between the flats where I live and Conham River Park
and so I decided to venture down to have a look. Its a narrow little
wooded lane with no street lighting. Without the threat of any cars
being able to hurtle around the corner, I was able to walk along the
dark passageway to where the road gets closest to the swollen river
Avon.
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It was eerily silent and peaceful, all
except for the rushing of the river as it eddied through the trees on
the river banks. It felt scary walking along the road, not because of
the dark which I loved, but because of the threat of the torrential
river breaking its banks at any moment. I reached the point where the
road dips and found that the river was only 1 or 2 inches from
reaching the top of its concrete containment.
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As I stood there both exhilarated and
awed by the power of nature; I remembered the the Dark Goddess. I
remembered that the moon is currently waxing and only 2 days away
from being full. I remembered that this full moon will also be a
powerful eclipse, and the last one before the end of this <i>Great
Year</i>, Humanity's 26,000 year journey of separation from the Goddess. I
remembered that the Dark Goddess Lilith has made herself known
through Her owl messenger, and that only a couple of hours before, I
had been blown away by a beautiful picture of a huge red full moon with an
owl flying beneath, wings outstretched. I remembered that
earlier this afternoon I had smiled when I saw a man walking along
who was wearing red tracksuit bottoms, a bobble hat and a little ruck
sack with a huge owl on it.
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I also remembered that these are
Brigit's Isles, and that Britannia (Brigit Anna) is the land of the
Goddess. I remembered and that Glastonbury (and the South West) is where we feel closest
to Her and where we go to access Her energies. As I stood there silently remembering
all these things, I said a prayer to honour The Great Goddess in all Her
forms and I offered myself in complete service. And as I
stood there, face to face with the Dark Goddess, <i>I felt
utterly and completely safe</i>. </div>
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Freja <span style="font-size: xx-small;"> <span style="font-size: small;"><i><span style="color: magenta;">♥</span></i></span></span></div>
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Snowy Owlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14913828466236719023noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4663662859161039251.post-31890177800881967362012-11-24T13:54:00.001-08:002012-12-13T02:13:24.640-08:002012: Closing the Door on The Old Way <style type="text/css">
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</style> I have been blogging about my '2012' journey over the past 18 months, in a somewhat haphazard,
meandering way. Suddenly here we all are with less than amonth to go and despite my 'best laid plans', I have only
just received all the jigsaw pieces and been able to put them all together. Far more has gone on behind the scenes than I could possibly have
shared with you – there just wouldn't have been enough hours in the
day to write it all as well as live it. But now I have finally come out
the other side and reached an inner peace and absolute clarity, I can see the meandering was all part of
The Plan.
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I am not sure where the time has gone
but I do know this, no one is really talking about <i>what happens
next</i>. (At least, not that I am aware of.) It seems that everyone
is anticipating a big event on the 21<sup>st</sup> of December 2012
and that nothing beyond that date really matters. Perhaps this is
because we believe it will either be the end of the world, the end of
our time here on earth, the end of all pain and suffering or it will
just be business as usual, so whatever is going to happen <i>after </i>'2012' seems pointless to even think about.</div>
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Those who are waiting for Armageddon
will wake up on the 22<sup>nd</sup> of December scratching their
heads wondering if perhaps they got the wrong date. Those who are
expecting to be magically transported to a magical La La Land where
there is no pain or suffering will feel the bitter pang of
disillusionment. And those who have 'always been a little skeptical'
will simply dismiss '2012' as another mass hysteria based on fantasy,
and in some ways they would be right. Winter Solstice 2012 is <i>not
</i>going to be a 'Hollywood style' end of the world nor will it be
when a group of spiritually elite souls escape on a spaceship to some higher
dimension and if we measure what actually happens by these fantasies, then 22<sup>nd</sup> of
December will be just another day of Christmas shopping and a
huge anti-climax.</div>
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People have become so fixated on 'what
is going to happen next' in terms of external events, that many are
missing out on what is <i>already happening now</i>. We are so used
to the intense stimulation and mass hysteria created by the media and fanned by social networking, that for anything to have
any real meaning or importance these days, it has to be BIG and LOUD
and it has to send us reeling. If a global event has even the
slightest chance of outshining a trip to the local cinema to see your
average Hollywood movie, it would have to send the entire population
of the world into a roller coaster ride of terror and catastrophe.
Expecting Winter Solstice 2012 to unfold like an American disaster
movie is like expecting God to wave his big finger down at you to let
you know you've won the lottery. Thankfully, <i>God is a little more
subtle than that</i>.</div>
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Those who are waiting for an earth
shattering horrific global event to occur; <i>it has already happened
many times over</i> – World War I and II are just the tip of the
iceberg. Those who are waiting for the established world order to
start crumbling; <i>it is already happening in every corner of
human civilization</i> which is why there is such a sense of impending doom and an urgency in everything we do. Those who are waiting for someone to
point us in the right direction and show us the way out; <i>many
enlightened spiritual leaders have already been provided </i>-
Buddha, Jesus and Gandhi to name but a few. <b style="color: magenta;">All that is actually left
to 'happen' is for us to close the door on the Old Way and
reconnect with the Light</b><span style="color: magenta;">.</span> Thankfully p<span style="font-style: normal;">eople
across the world have already begun this healing process and on the 21</span><sup><span style="font-style: normal;">st</span></sup><span style="font-style: normal;">
of December 2012 at 11.20 am GMT, </span><i>the door will finally close on the past</i><span style="font-style: normal;">.
</span><i> </i>
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This may well be the most momentous and
significant 'event' in recorded human history, but there will be no
need for you to go out and by popcorn and diet coke because there
will be nothing for you to sit and watch. The only way to experience
the awesome power of Winter Solstice 2012 is by joining with the
people (and spirit helpers) who are <i>already in the process of
closing the door</i>. To be part of 2012 all you need is the positive
intention to close the door and to open your heart to the millions of
souls who will be 'joining forces' with you in that moment, whether
you can see them or not. If you decide not to join in with this
collective prayer you needn't worry, the door will still be closed. But
should you decide you want to experience the awe and wonder of '2012'
then you will have to <i>close your eyes and feel it. </i></div>
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And as for what will happen next? Well, they say that once one door closes, another door will open...</div>
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<br /></div>
<div style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
<i>To be continued... </i></div>
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Freja <span style="font-size: xx-small;"> <span style="font-size: small;"><i><span style="color: magenta;">♥</span></i></span></span>
</div>
Snowy Owlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14913828466236719023noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4663662859161039251.post-62840265106231254812012-11-15T04:06:00.000-08:002012-12-05T02:04:43.445-08:00Trusting the Divine PlanSo this is what it is all about – it is about <i>going with the flow</i>. It is about paying attention and allowing things to unfold in their own time. It's about not having <i>any </i>agenda and not knowing how or where or when. It is about being completely open to Life and trusting something else is working through us. It is about being completely guided, <i>not having any plan at all</i>. But this is incredibly scary because it is about completely relinquishing my own will, (and I have an incredibly strong one!) and about dropping all attempts to control or direct my life. It is about aligning with Spirit so that Spirit leads me, rather than me trying to get Spirit to give me what it is <i>I think </i>I want or need, or to help me do what <i>I think I should be doing</i>.<br />
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As I go deeper into this letting go, I am becoming more aware of a deep underlying anxiety. It manifests as hyper sensitivity and alertness. I notice my muscles contracting, my breathing being tight and shallow. I become fixated on my health or solving a problem or worrying about the future, something which sometimes I do not even dare to think about. I know I am letting go and trying to hold on all at the same time. Or rather, my Conscious Self is letting go and my unconscious self is in a state of deep terror and recurrent waves of anxiety. I thought letting go it would be a clear moment, a specific event but it is not – it is a continual, gradual process. <br />
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I want to be relaxed. I want to go with the flow – something I experience much of the time. But it threatens something deep inside me, so I am letting go, letting go, letting go - then suddenly I find I am gritting my teeth again. I realise I am going deeper and deeper into it, getting further and further away from all that feels safe and familiar – all those self imposed limits and strategies for staying in control. Part of me refuses to let go, or rather, I find myself contracting again as if my very life was at stake.<br />
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I know there is no way back to the way things were. My Conscious Self understands this and totally embraces it; but my ego thinks I <i>must</i> be about to fall. My ego wants it all to be over, to get back to feeling like I am standing on tried and tested solid 'real' ground. But now I am floating freely, joyously even, but not yet completely trusting that I am not going to come crashing down at any moment to hit the ground with a thud. I accept my fears and gently allow myself to adjust to this new reality, to accept that this floating sensation is is what it feels like to let go, to surrender completely. I strengthen my faith in The Divine Plan and my trust that <i>when I let go I can be safely carried to where ever I need to go.</i><br />
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Every day is a genuine new adventure, every step a journey deeper into the unknown.... and scary as it is, this is what it means to <i>truly live</i>.<br />
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Freja<span style="font-size: small;"> <i><span style="color: magenta;">♥</span></i></span> Snowy Owlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14913828466236719023noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4663662859161039251.post-80103023132957374192012-11-13T10:52:00.000-08:002012-12-05T02:01:22.368-08:00Have You Noticed All The Owls?Everywhere I look I have been seeing owls. I see them on cards, purses, bags, teeshirts and owls made of feathers or felt carefully positioned in shop windows. Clearly they are in vogue at the moment but I am not talking about a few of them here or there, literally everywhere I look in the consumer world <i>I see owls</i>. I have been pondering on this for a few weeks now, but I just saw a photo of two owl egg cups on facebook and it got me thinking about them again – <i>what could all the owls mean?</i><br />
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Last year around the same time of year, I had a tawny owl 'visitation' and wrote about it on facebook (Nov 21st 2011). Around the same time I also had a dream about a snowy owl floating above me in a wicker chair and dropping a quill in my lap. Then in the spring I found a dead owl in the road with its head missing but its wings and most of its feathers in tact which I was able to extract and use. Owl has become a very important animal totem for me personally and so I have been collecting owl images and ornaments over the past year and in my home, I felt drawn to make sure there was an owl presence in every room. <br />
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I had the Snowy Owl dream first which felt very significant, however the Tawny Owl visitation simply blew me away. I believe both hold the key to the meaning of all the owl energy we are now collectively experiencing. I had just finished doing a really positive shamanic reading on the phone and was chatting to another psychic friend when I heard a tapping on my window. I had my back to it and wondered what the hell it could be as I was on the first floor (above ground level). Still on the phone to my friend, I swiveled my chair around. As I turned, I saw that a tawny owl was sat there on my (outside) window sill. Not only had it tapped on the window seemingly to get my attention, but it had settled right behind a card I had propped up against the window which was part of a little Goddess alter. The card was Lilith and <i>Owl is her totem animal</i>. <br />
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After a few moments of me only being able to say Oh My God Oh My God Oh My God repeatedly to my poor friend on the other end of the phone, the owl then turned its head right around and looked me directly in the eye before flying off, hooting into the trees opposite. It was awesome not just that the owl had landed on my windowsill and looked directly at me, but that she had chosen to sit so her head was directly above Lilith. I nearly died on the spot with excitement – what a gift it was. <i>What a powerful omen...</i><br />
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Within days I began the descent into what has turned out to be the most challenging 12 months of my life. It has been dark and painful and can only be described as an intense Shamanic death which (thankfully) culminated in late August. I am not going to go into that right now, but I do feel a strong need to share with you what all the owls mean. (If you haven't noticed them yet – next time you go to the shops keep your eyes peeled – they are literally everywhere!)<br />
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Owl medicine can mean many things but at this time she has made herself known to be acting as Lilith's messenger. I know this because Owl is Lilith's totem and one of her kind literally found an image of Lilith and placed herself by it then tapped on the window of someone who would understand the significance of her actions and then <i>pay attention</i> – something which I have continued to do ever since because the experience was so powerful. <br />
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Lilith is an aspect of the dark Goddess and represents feminine (sexual) power. The '2012' Ascension is all about the return of the Goddess and it requires the unleashing of the repressed aspects of the feminine, namely her sexual and spiritual powers. Lilith is by no means an easy energy to handle, (even for women because we are so out of practice,) but She absolutely must be honoured and embraced during the evolution of humanity. We will all need to call upon Her strength and guidance as we engage in the shifts of consciousness and earth changes which will be accelerating over the next few years. (2012 is the ending of the Old Way, next year is also a potent new beginning that will catapult us into the New Age and New Great Year.)<br />
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The owls have begun appearing in droves because the Goddess Lilith is making Her presence felt. Every time you see an owl, think of the Goddess and what you need to do to honour Her. If you are a woman, how can you take better care of yourself and what areas of your life do you need to step into your power? If you are a man, how can you improve your relationships with women or demonstrate more respect for the Divine Feminine? <br />
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At this potent time it is important that we all pay close attention to our intuition and to any significant nocturnal dreams. If you need guidance in any area of your life, call on Owl (or Lilith or The Goddess) before you go to sleep and ask her to guide you. <i>Then pay attention</i> to what you are shown in your dreams or through other signs in your waking life and trust you will be guided to what you need to to know. You can visualise Owl delivering you a message, meditate on Owl medicine or go on a Shamanic Journey to meet with Owl. The more you pay attention, the more support and guidance you will discover is available to you. <br />
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Just one more important point on the significance of Owl and Lilith at this time. Today is a new moon (solar) eclipse and I thought I'd have a quick look at what both asteroid and Black Moon Lilith were doing at the time of the eclipse. Asteroid Lilith and Black Moon Lilith are conjunct (next to each other in the sky and therefore joining forces) and Black Moon Lilith (the dark, hidden aspects of the Goddess) is in an exact T square with Mercury (Messenger of the Gods) and Neptune (The Divine Realm). <i>All three </i>are at 0 degrees (in Gemini, Sagittarius and Pisces respectively) The 'number' 0 representing both God and infinity... to quote Doreen Virtue about 0<i>: 'God is talking to you. When you see a zero, it's a sign of the endless circle of Omega without beginning or end. God is trying to get your attention with a word of reassurance or Divine guidance.'</i><br />
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This eclipse has a VERY strong message from the Divine: Wake up to the Dark Goddess. She has returned and She needs <i>you</i> to start honouring Her and to start <i>paying close attention.</i> <br />
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When I saw the photo of the owl egg cups on facebook (Hannah Turner Ceramics) and felt inspired to write about Owl as the messenger of the Goddess Lilith, I wasn't surprised to discover she is involved in today's solar eclipse - the last one at the end of a 26,000 year cycle of feminine repression. Tonight the moon (feminine) is totally eclipsing the sun (masculine) and making herself known through shadow. All the owls we find in our shops signify Lilith's potent return to our collective consciousness, and assures us that She is preparing our psyches for whatever is coming next. Ignore Her at your peril!<br />
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Freja <i><span style="color: magenta;"><span style="font-size: small;">♥</span></span></i><span style="font-size: x-small;"><i><span style="color: magenta;"></span></i></span>Snowy Owlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14913828466236719023noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4663662859161039251.post-28888527355625919712012-08-01T07:31:00.000-07:002012-12-05T02:00:14.779-08:00Ascension & The Evolution of Spiritual ConsciousnessHaving recently gone through yet another 'wave' – two in fact, I have had some new insights into the ascension process which I would like to share with you.<br />
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Each experience has been incredibly intense and often deeply traumatic; it feels like being out in the sea with huge waves crashing over me, sometimes pulling me under for a time. Despite being physically and emotionally exhausted from <i>19 months</i> of this, somehow I am managing not to drown, though there have been many close calls! Despite the relentlessness of the process, I have a deep inner knowing that the waves are carrying me ever closer to the shore and that I am being <i>completely</i> supported through this process. <br />
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I feel like the Goddess is giving birth to me, that I am being born out of Her Cosmic Ocean and that these excruciating waves I have been experiencing are in fact <i>birthing contractions</i>. Whenever the contractions stop I take a deep breath and try to get back to some kind of normality. And each time, to my deep dismay and frustration, that find that I just can't manage it. I have come to realise that this is because I am still stuck in the birth canal! (My back is making damn sure I can't go anywhere or do anything until I am 'out the other side'; it is the limiting factor which is 'holding me down' and enabling the birthing to take place.) <br />
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Each time the 'contractions' have stopped I have mistakenly thought this means that it's finally over. This is partly because I want it to be, partly because it has been going on for so long and partly because I really don't know what to expect once I have reached the 'other side'. I have been imagining that the end of this process will be marked by a gradual 'return to normality' with some exciting perks but I am beginning to see that this is no more likely than a new born baby returning to the womb once s/he has been born! <br />
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I now believe that when this birthing process is finally over, it will feel so completely different from being 'back in the womb' or 'squeezed through the birth canal', that there will be absolutely no room for doubt that the process is complete. Until then, I need to accept that there is absolutely no going back, that the only way out is through and that I cannot rush this process. No matter how much will power I try to use – it is going to take as long as it takes and I have come to accept that there really is absolutely nothing I can do but surrender to the process and trust that once I have actually been birthed – <i>I will know I have arrived!</i> <br />
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I have come to believe that the Ascension is the Goddess (Earth) literally birthing the new evolved human being. This is not just a personal evolutionary process or even the evolution of humanity; <i>this is an evolutionary shift of the Earth Herself. </i>(I make no distinction between the Earth and the Goddess.)<br />
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Many moons ago I read somewhere on the net that we are entering into the 5th 'Kingdom' on Earth, or perhaps it would be more apt to say we are about to experinence the 5th evolutionary shift on Earth. Let me explain...<br />
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1. Out of pure energy the mineral 'kingdom' was born; 2. out of minerals the plant kingdom was born; 3. out of plants the animal kingdom was born; 4. out of animals the human kingdom was born and now, 5. out of humans a new 'spiritually evolved being' is being born. The Ascension of humanity is therefore part of the <i>evolution of the planet</i>; the Goddess is 'birthing' a more evolved aspect of Herself <i>through humanity</i>. <br />
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You can better understand this planetary process of evolution by observing the evolutionary process of an individual human being. First you have the seed of potential new life present in both the egg and the sperm, the gametes. Although these gametes carry within them a code of DNA, (the potential for human life) they are nothing more energy and mineral (matter) and if they do not develop into the next phase, they will simply return back to Source. Once these 'energised' minerals are ignited into life, they experience their first evolutionary shift into a growing zygote. The zygote then implants in the womb and becomes an embryo which developes into a foetus.<br />
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Once the foetus is ready to be born as a child, it is unrecognisable from its original 'gamete' state. This organism will have already been through a series of mind blowing evolutionary shifts, but it remains <i>completely unaware</i> of this. (As far as we know!) As the new born human being grows from a baby into a child it begins to develop consciousness: The older the human being gets, the more conscious it becomes of itself, its surroundings and its place in the world.<br />
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If you take this individual evolutionary process and apply it to the whole of humanity – it too has been through a similar process over many thousands of years. The Ascension process is humanity (as a unified whole) 'coming of age'; reaching maturity, self awareness and a high level of spiritual conscious. If you take the same process again and apply it to <i>the planet</i>, humanity is in fact <i>one phase of evolution in the Greater Evolution of the Earth.</i> Humanity is 'The Child' phase in the Earth's evolution and now we have reached mature consciousness, we have begun to metamorphose into 'The Adult'; the Enlightened Being. <br />
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Here is an analogy of individual and planetary evolution in simple terms:<br />
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<b>Gametes</b> (pre-fertilisation; egg and sperm cells) = <b>Mineral Kingdom</b><br />
<b>Zygote</b> (unattached / floating fertilised egg) = <b>Plant Kingdom</b><br />
<b>Foetus/Embryo</b> (implanted zygote) = <b>Animal Kingdom</b><br />
<b>Child</b> = <b>Kingdom of Humanity</b> (Development of Separate Consciousness) <br />
<b>Adult</b> = <b>Kingdom of Evolved Beings </b>(Higher Consciousness on Earth)<br />
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Of course, many human souls will not 'make it' to the next phase, in the same way that not every child makes it to adulthood, and not every gamete is fertilised. However, just as minerals, plants, and animals have continued to exist during the human ('child') planetary phase, so human beings will continue to exist once the new 'spiritually evolved' beings have been fully birthed: In short, The Adults will not replace The Children, they will offer help, support and guidance to The Children, who up until recently have been left floundering around by themselves in a 'Lord of the Flies' type scenario. <br />
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Ascended Beings will not replace humanity because all Earthly creations are part of a cosmic continuum and each new stage of evolution co-exists alongside the previous stages. All it means is that The Children of the Earth (humanity) will no longer have to struggle without the support of loving 'parental guidance' <i>in the flesh</i>, so to speak. Jesus was the first to Ascend (that we know of) and he paved the way for humanity to begin the Mass Ascension Process. In the New Age, there will be many, many more individuals like him who will help lead the way to Peace on Earth.<br />
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Up until now, it has been a case of the blind leading the blind; humanity has been led by our instinctive, child (ego) selves in a bloody, traumatic quest for the survival of the fittest. As humanity has grown up we have developed more awareness of our power. However, without reliable adult (conscious) guidance on how to manage and utilise this incredible power, it has only led us to cause increasingly terrifying damage to ourselves, each other and the planet. The unguided child of humanity has created a chaotic 'hell' here on earth which the New Beings will help to clean up. <br />
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2012 is only the beginning – the Earth Goddess is currently in the process of 'birthing' increasing numbers of Ascended Beings while humanity plummets into a deep cataclysmic crisis of its own (unconscious) making. If the Earth is the Great Mother – then she too is in turmoil as she supports the 'birthing' of the Ascended Beings. But rather than the Goddess giving birth to a new baby, the 2012 'birthing' process is actually the <i>metamorphosis of her (human) child through adolescence into adulthood</i>. <br />
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Humanity has evolved as far as it can as the Unconscious Child of The Great Goddess and now all that is left for us to do is metamorphose into the natural next state of being; Conscious Adulthood. So, even though I have described the Ascension as a 'birthing' process, which it absolutely is, another analogy for the 2012 process would be the <i>metamorphosis of a caterpillar into a butterfly... </i> <br />
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Freja <span style="font-size: small;"><i><span style="color: magenta;">♥</span></i></span>Snowy Owlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14913828466236719023noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4663662859161039251.post-72272130672918882912012-07-14T03:04:00.002-07:002012-12-05T01:59:13.318-08:002012: The Big PictureYesterday I realised two major things. Firstly, that the Ascension is a birthing process; I have literally been experiencing 'giving birth' to my Self over the last 18 months. On an micro/personal level, this is what each individual soul must go through in order to ascend. By sharing our personal stories and our 'strength and hope' with others, we give much needed support to those who are embarking on this magnificent and sometimes terrifying journey. I will continue to do this and hope you too will be inspired to share your comments, queries and stories on this site. <br />
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Secondly, I have become aware that everything required to activate the social 'break down' process in Britain is now in place and there really is no going back. Although I am aware that this 'break down' process is in fact global and already underway, things are going to snowball significantly over the next few years and presently I feel best able to comment on what is happening in my own country. I am sure that similar things will be or are already happening in other so called 'developed' (rich) countries, so even if you do not live in Britain, I am sure you will still relate to much of what I am going to be writing about.<br />
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I am not trying to sound melodramatic or fatalistic. I believe <i>knowledge is power</i> and I am absolutely sure that this is why humanity has been blessed with the gift of the internet at such a deeply challenging time. I also believe that we need to prepare ourselves for what is <i>realistically </i>going to transpire over the next 5 years because of very <i>real</i> decisions that have <i>already been made</i> by very <i>real </i>politicians who currently hold very <i>real</i> power over every aspect of our lives. I am not talking about aliens, meteriorites or the end of the world, I am talking about the complete break down of society which is being precipitated by those currently in power stubbornly refusing to change.<br />
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This isn't about scare mongering it is about <i>Being Prepared</i>. <br />
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I have always seen '2012' as both a personal and collective process but I have tried to remain 'unpolitical' in my comments so far. While I have always been politically aware and active to some degree, in my mid twenties I realised that ranting and raging at 'The Establishment' could easily be used as a distraction from facing inner demons. I was aware that I had some major work to do on myself and knew instictively that dealing with these 'inner' issues would not only help me, but it would actually be my first real step towards helping to 'save the world'. <br />
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After 20 years of hard graft 'working on myself', I now feel it is time to bring the two together; the personal and the political, the macro and the micro, the inner and the outer worlds. When healing the world, you really can't just deal with one side of the coin, you must find a way to synthesise it <i>all</i>. I still firmly believe that we must <i>always</i> begin with ourselves, because ultimately we are powerless over others. And also, as Maggie quoted in her comments on the last post: <a href="http://www.missionpossible2012.blogspot.co.uk/2012/07/be-light-unto-yourself.html#comment-form">'you save yourself or you remain unsaved'</a><br />
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I have so much to write about it is sometimes hard to know where to begin so I will start by letting you know that this blog is evolving just as we all are and it will now include my thoughts and insights on the macro/ political/ outer world as well as insights and experiences on the Micro / personal/ inner world. And I will attempt to tie it all together for you! : ) <br />
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Watch this space! <br />
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Freja <span style="font-size: small;"><i><span style="color: magenta;">♥</span></i></span>Snowy Owlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14913828466236719023noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4663662859161039251.post-35347112655504741002012-07-12T05:27:00.000-07:002012-12-05T01:55:37.548-08:00'Be a Light Unto Yourself'...I am so in this process I often don't know if I am coming or going. Just as I come up for air, I get pulled under again... <br />
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A recent situation with an ex sent me back into the vortex. There further in to this process I go the less I have to lean on because all my old coping mechanisms (including another incredibly powerful and enduring fantasy about the relationship with my ex) are being disabled or stripped away from me. It has been a very close call since last week's full moon and I honestly have never been so close to the edge of my sanity. I nearly called for the men in white coats to come and take me away... ANYTHING would be better than this.<br />
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<b><i>But what is this?</i></b><br />
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This is not being mobile as my back is threatening to prolapse again. Not being able to get or stay in a 'normal' job. Not knowing where I am going to move to or when, when I know I am going to have to soon. Having one trauma or 'set back' after another, relentlessly for 18 months. Having everything I have been trying to 'make work' all my life fail stupendously. Realising I have not had a single close healthy relationship with a man ever in my life (just an enormous 'grave yard' full of traumatic relationships I have ceaselessly had to leave behind...) Being alone in my flat 95% of the time and no longer even having a fantasy left to protect me! <br />
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<i><b>Protection from what?</b></i><br />
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From THIS, from the nothingness – The Void. I am completely and utterly on my own. I am not really 'attached' to anyone or anything. All my support is (gratefully) received from afar. I have no boyfriend, 'best friend', family member, no job, no project or mission, no plan, no idea where I am going, no sense of anything 'holding me down' or defining me; I am simply existing. I have no mountain to climb, no resolution to find, no problem to fix. I have no individual relationship nor role in the world to define me and every time I try to attach myself to (or even simply hang onto) someone or something, it all spectacularly blows up in my face! <br />
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All that is left is ME. The terrifying panic comes from the belief that without those relationships/roles defining me and giving me a sense of security in the world, I am just floating along a meandering river or drifting with the tide and that my life is completely meaningless. Without the day to day drama of relationships with family, partners, children and close friends or even a job, project or goals for the future, <i>who the hell are we? </i><br />
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While I was in the midst of my emotional crisis a good friend sent me a text with some very wise words...<br />
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'Be a light unto yourself;<br />
Be take yourself to no external refuge.<br />
Hold fast to the truth.<br />
Look not to anyone for refuge besides yourself.'<br />
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The Buddha<br />
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<i>Perhaps easier said than done Mr Buddha!!!!</i><br />
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Freja <i><span style="color: magenta;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">♥</span></span></i>Snowy Owlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14913828466236719023noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4663662859161039251.post-83673436567711149152012-06-30T06:23:00.001-07:002012-12-05T01:54:57.511-08:00Excavating The Soul<style type="text/css">
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completely awed by the enormity, the complexity and the synchronicity
of it all, the way everything has come together and now <i>makes sense</i>
is astounding...
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I always knew I was on a big journey
but never in my wildest dreams would I have imagined <i>this</i>. I
was always trying to 'get' somewhere, always seeking answers,
resolution and an end to <i>all the pain.</i><span style="font-style: normal;">
And there is s</span>o much pain and struggle in the world, I honestly don't
know how anyone survives it. Yet here I am in June 2012, aged 41
<i>without a single thing </i>I thought I needed to feel OK about
myself or my life. No relationship, (well not in any conventional
sense – but that's another story!), no glitzy career, no soaring
success, no children, and no, not even a big lottery win... </div>
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The 40 year struggle to secure <i>something</i> or <i>someone</i> 'out there' has
me completely and utterly defeated. Yet, suddenly and incomprehensibly
everything makes perfect sense. Despite every effort to
'get my life back on track', every attempt has been categorically blocked. In the space that
has been 'forcibly' created, I have set about
consciously engaging in a process of letting go, releasing and purifying on a scale that would
make <i>anyone's</i> eyes water. </div>
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Since the full moon eclipse at the beginning of June, my
life has begun <i>unfolding</i> in the most surprising and awesome
way. Over the past few weeks I have
arrived in a reality that is somehow simultaneously both infinitely simpler and
infinitely more complex. I am 'joining dots' and having 'aha' moments
<i>all the time</i>, so much so that they are no longer mere 'moments' they
have become a continuous State of Being. It's not just one light that has been
switched on, it's a whole city! I feel like my mind has been broken
open, releasing all the dross and expanding into a whole new way of
perceiving reality.
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(I began this piece of writing in my
journal and then thought this is exactly the kind of writing I need
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It turns out my
journal writing has been massively instrumental in this recent
'awakening' process. A few weeks ago I was guided to begin the
process of going through all my old letters and journals to begin
releasing the past and this is some 'guided writing' I found:</div>
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'We want you to let go of the past
Freja. We want you to let go of all that has happened to you. All the
people you have released, all the pain and struggle, all the fear and
anger, all that no longer serves you and the identity you have
created out of your survival patterns. You need to release them
all....</div>
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You are split between your old identity
and the new one which has yet to fully emerge. Your ego is finding
the changes terrifying and keeps trying to throw you back into the
familiar old ways....</div>
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You need to release all the negative
writing Freja – all of it. It is doing nothing but holding you back
and keeping you in the past. It is time to say good bye, to 'burn the
bridges'. You do not need the pain or to identify with what happened
to you. You cannot be free while you carry this around with you. You
are not letting it go in anger or fear, but with forgiveness,
compassion and release. You need to begin this process now. Remember
this is about a DEEP let go, not a rehashing of old resentments. If
'stuff' comes up, you need to release it with the rest.</div>
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The past must be burned and released.
You need to let go of your identity as an 'abuse <span lang="en-GB">survivor</span>'
and a 'wounded child' or a 'co-dependent' or a 'love addict' – you
are evolving and need to release these 'tags' which have enabled you
to find your spiritual path and connect with your soul. These 'tags'
were a tool; they helped you identify the problem and find a
solution, but they are not who you are in essence. It is time to
evolve past these issues and become your liberated self...'</div>
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And so, very slowly I set about going
through all my letters and journals and other boxes of paper
work I have been carting around for years because I felt <i>I
needed to hold on to it for evidence</i>. This paper work included my
teaching 'portfolio of evidence', my coaching course notes and all my 12
Step work/writing. I have literally gone through my whole adult life –
the twenty odd years I have been trying to get over my childhood –
and symbolically burned or recycled the lot. I also went through all my books and passed on any I was no
longer using. Any books to do with my journey up to this point that
were no longer relevant for the path ahead were given to people I
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This massive 'clear out'
brought me to finally address my many boxes of journals. The question was, should I
simply burn the lot of them? This idea filled me with dread
and also seemed to defeat the whole object of keeping records of my life. I have kept a diary from the age of 9 and I felt my
writing had at times literally saved my life – so I felt I owed it to myself and my
journals to at least have a read through to see if there was anything
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I decided to keep the childhood
ones as I had read them many times before and there weren;t piles of them taking up too much room. I also decided to keep all my old letters because they
inspired <i>positive</i> feelings. I also no longer felt a nostalgic
longing or regret for old relationships that had simply passed away. And so began the
incredible process of reading through the
record I had kept during my 20 year healing process. I began the
'excavation process' with my journal dated April 1992 for it was then that I had made a conscious decision to find a way to deal
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In all the years I have kept a journal,
I have never tried reading <i>all the way through, </i>I had only ever gone back to read specific bits. This was a full 20
years worth of writing and I decided to go through it all. I didn't read it
word for word, for there were large amounts of ranting and processing, especially in the early years
– but I did flick through every single page and decide if it was a
page I would like to keep or to release. When I started this project
I had absolutely no idea where it would lead me – I just felt great
chucking out / burning vast swathes of paper with words I no longer
needed to read or carry around with me. It was <i>hugely </i>cathartic.
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I was surprised to discover
that I was 'over' it all. While a few feelings did come up here and
there, as I read stuff that I had felt <i>deeply </i>pained by (even when
going back to read it many years later,) I didn't feel triggered, I felt for the first time like
an <i>observer</i>. There wasn't numbness or torment; it was simply 'time to
let this go' and so that's exactly what I did!</div>
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I was also surprised to discover lots
of really interesting little gems of insight, hope and sometimes even
premonition – and I loved excavating these treasures out of the
rubble of my early adult life. I also decided to keep writing about key events so I
would have a basic record of my journey. The first five years was
whittled down from about 6 arch folders down to 1 and the same again
for the next five years. This brought me up to 2002. With only two
arch files of writing covering 10 years of my life, I was feeling <i>so</i>
much lighter!
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The best thing about the first part of
the process was seeing how far I had come and realising that I was
over the soul destroying <i>pain</i> of it. I really never thought
I'd see the day. My childhood was pure hell and I spent my twenties
flailing about like a piece of flotsam and jetsam in a raging ocean
storm. Even between storms – I still felt cast aside, alone and
adrift in a vast terrifying ocean. While I already knew I had come out of
that place, it was really wonderful to realise that I no longer even felt the <i>memory </i>of it affected me. It was a huge blessing and
relief to get the chance to let it all go...</div>
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I didn't know what to expect in terms
of reading about the next ten years (2002 – 2012) I had imagined
that most of the recovery/healing had taken place in the first 10
years, it was, after all the period in which I had painstakingly
'uncovered' all the abuse of my childhood and by peeling away layers and layers of
denial both in myself and in my family. (It really was grueling work and it
seemed to go on for ever, but then I did have an awful lot to uncover
and process...)
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What I hadn't seen was that actually
most of the healing took place <i>after</i> the uncovering and that
actually my process snowballed after
that. There was of course some cross over, but once I had completed
cracking myself open and all the pieces of the jigsaw of my life
had been revealed, a deeper somehow more subtle healing process began. The next task was to find
a way to put myself back together, minus all the 'crap' I had
inherited/ experienced and to let go of the layers upon layers of
defenses and survival mechanisms I had built up during years of dealing with deep suffering.
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I was therefore surprised to discover that the closer I got to 2012, the harder I
found it to condense my writing. During the last 12 months I had written 2 arch files and have only been able
to condense it down to 1! There is much less ranting in my writing and while there
has been 'processing', it has happened increasingly fast – to
the point where I have addressed more than 10 <i>major<b> </b></i>issues
in the last 12 months, all at lightening speed and with almost none of the usual 'fall out'.
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I also became
aware that a clear 'acceleration' began in 2005 and that by 2011, my
journals took on a whole new dimension. What amazes me is that I was
completely unaware of this until I read through it all! Up
until I decided to read through it all, I had only been aware of being 'in a (strange)
process' I could neither understand nor control. I have discovered that
somehow, while I was busy trying to keep putting one front of the
other, I was also unwittingly receiving and recording some incredibly deep insights
into my soul, my life path and also into the 2012 process.
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Ultimately, 'it' all happened when I
wasn't looking (or <i>trying</i> or <i>striving...</i>) I just continued to do what I naturally felt drawn to do or in some cases was pushed to do by the Universe. It has all unfolded so perfectly that I will never again doubt my
journey or that I am being guided to exactly the right
experiences I need in order to evolve as a human being. And I have
also discovered that although I have received much valuable guidance
along the way, both from other people and from spirit – <i>the only accurate
'compass' I have on this journey is my soul</i>. </div>
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I have discovered that my entire process thus far has
been about excavating my soul and learning how to 'read', understand and follow her guidance. Now that I have found her and have learned how to communicate with her, I
am finally free to walk in alignment with my soul's purpose here on planet Earth. And, seeing as I have kept such an in depth record of it all, I am sure part of my purpose is to help others excavate their own souls from the rubble of this thing we call 'life'. </div>
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Writing has been a major part of this process on so many different levels and now I am enjoying the process of sharing it with you. I have come 'full circle' in so far as I have finally 'caught up' with the journey I have been living and come to a place of acceptance and understanding that I never knew was even possible. And I am really not sure what comes next, but for the first time in my life I find this <i>deeply and inexplicably exciting!</i> </div>
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Snowy Owlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14913828466236719023noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4663662859161039251.post-41146349042350774522012-06-21T05:07:00.000-07:002012-12-05T01:52:38.372-08:00Learning to Go With The Flow...<span style="font-size: large;"><b>Happy Summer Solstice! </b></span><br />
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Only 6 months to go...<br />
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I really have absolutely no idea what life has in sort... Sort? I actually meant to write <i>store</i>. I am doing a massive <i>sort</i> out at the moment, maybe that was a confirmation of what life has in store for the time being? <br />
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For the first time in my life, I have completely let go. I have no plans, no goals, and absolutely <i>no idea </i>where I am going! OK, I have to be honest here - I have spent much of the first 6 months of this year kicking, screaming and wailing against the relentless 'melt down' I have been experiencing. I kept thinking I had finished then yet another 'thing' would come a long. It was like, YOU CAN'T BE SERIOUS! <i>NOT THIS TOO!!!</i> But once the process started, there really was no going back and now that I am on the other side (with absolutely <i>nothing left</i> to let go of), I feel totally amazing. It was definitely worth the pain and angst. I have been stripped so bare that people have been asking me if I have lost weight, when actually I put on half a stone with my wide eyed comfort eating. <br />
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I have spent my life being very goal oriented. From about the age of 12 I can remember making distinct, big decisions to turn my life around and/or to focus all my energy on something positive or disciplined. I have always felt like I was on some BIG mission. The older I got the stronger and more urgent the calling felt. (No surprises then that I named this blog 'Mission Possible'!)<br />
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I created this blog in an attempt to other help people with the 2012 transition. I wanted to be all 'on the case' with regular blogging – like my usual 'on the case' self. Of course I really had absolutely no idea what the scale of the 'transition' life was going to put <i>me</i> through or that my process would render me completely speechless, not to mention emotionally and physically drained for much of the time. <br />
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I have been blown away by the last 12 - 18 months but it feels it is now time to have another go of writing this blog. However, I must warn you – I am no longer on a mission to do <i>anything</i>! I have been transformed by the Gods from Ms Incredibly Dynamic into Ms <i>Go With The Flow</i> which still feels a little strange and trippy at times. Though I believe my own transition is now complete, I am still getting used to living in this very different <i>state of Being</i>, an adjustment which is not at all helped by the fact that the very state itself involves being OK with having absolutely no idea where I am going or what I am 'meant' to be doing... Don't you just love the great ironies of life?<br />
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Just as a little funny 'synchronicity' anecdote; someone gave me an film to watch recently called 'I Know Where I Am Going!' - and yes that exclamation mark really is part of the title! I have had the film a few weeks, but only watched it a few days ago and I swear the main character was me. If you too are struggling with your sense of purpose or goals in life being thwarted, you might want to give it a viewing. It is a story about ambitions in love - but you can apply it to anything. <br />
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So, all I can do now is follow <i>The Flow</i> and see where life takes me, trusting that life is unfolding exactly as it should... <br />
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Freja <span style="color: magenta;"><span style="font-size: small;"><i>♥</i></span></span>Snowy Owlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14913828466236719023noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4663662859161039251.post-34245975222068003612012-04-05T07:03:00.002-07:002012-12-05T01:48:34.389-08:00Top Tips for Ascension<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%;">1. Release all attachments to wounded, unconscious individuals, trusting their souls will catch up in good time.</span></b><span lang="EN-GB"> </span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Waiting or trying to encourage them to grow or change or heal only holds <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">both</i>
of you back. They must feel the calling within or they will not be
motivated to do the work required. You growing, healing and being
liberated is more likely to inspire them than cajoling them will. Believing
you have to wait for someone else is an illusion that will distract your attention and hold you back from
spiritual evolution. Be strong! Move on! Do it for the evolution of humanity
of your can't yet do it for yourself.</span></div>
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<b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%;">2.
Release all attachment to sex and romance, trusting healthy separation
between the sexes creates space for a new positive conscious
relationships to emerge.</span></b><span lang="EN-GB"> </span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">The
(desperate) pursuit of sex and romance is the most powerful vehicle for distracting and undermining people and slowing down
the evolutionary process. Do not buy into the disempowering myth that
you need a relationship or sex to be happy and fulfilled or that it is
only in sexual relationships that 'true love' and '<i>real</i>
belonging' reside. Learn to love and honour <i>yourself</i>. Learn how to tap
into the Source of ALL love. Learn how to meet your social emotional
needs through friendship and community. If you are currently single and struggling with sexual relationships,
commit to working on your relationship with yourself until you are ready for a
conscious, non abusive, non dependent, equal sexual relationship. Accept that this may
not be in this life time and if it isn't it doesn't mean you have failed
or that there is something wrong with you, it means that <i>your precious creative energy can be channelled into into healing the planet</i> and you'll get your turn later! </span></div>
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<b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%;">3.
Direct all personal creative and sexual energy into self healing,
sharing positive ideas, building communities and connecting with the
Goddess.</span></b><span lang="EN-GB"> </span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Do
not allow this precious resource to be stolen by ‘energy sucking’
wounded individuals or redirected into chasing the 'mirages' of sex,
romance, approval, status, security, money or success. When you align
your life with your true spiritual purpose and seek to honour the Earth
Goddess, you will find yourself being supported directly by the Universe
– you will not need to ‘sell out’ or agree to giving your energy away
to those who wish to profit energetically or materially from your
efforts. By doing this, you will not only liberate yourself from
enslavement, you will also be enabling Source energy to be redirected so
that it can be used <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">for the good of the whole</i> rather than the (incredibly obscene and destructive) profit of the few.</span></div>
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<b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%;">4. Let go of ALL painful illusion(s) that you are unloved, alone, worthless, unwanted, excluded, ‘not good enough’ or rejected. </span></b></div>
<span lang="EN-GB">YOU ARE NOT ALONE! There is nothing wrong with you!! You do not <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">have</i> to believe any of these illusions if you don’t want to, no matter how compelling the evidence! And yes, <i>they can ALL be wrong!!</i> When you remain attached to the excruciatingly painful FALSE belief that there is <i>something mysteriously wrong with you</i>, it will trap you in the desert and drive you to waste your precious Life Force <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">chasing mirages</i>.
When you choose to identify yourself as ‘the one that nobody
wants/loves’ or ‘the one who is never good enough’ your psyche remains
wide open to further attack from unconscious and often unscrupulous
individuals who will <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">never allow you to feel</i>
loved, connected, valued, included, worthy or accepted. This is because
it is only by keeping you feeling bad that they can continue
controlling you and taking your energy. They will NEVER stop doing this!
You must find a way to CLOSE THE DOOR on this false pain and the
psychic attacks on your personal energy. Stop giving your power away and
remember who you are! </span><br />
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Freja <span style="color: magenta;"><span style="font-size: small;"><i>♥</i></span></span>Snowy Owlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14913828466236719023noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4663662859161039251.post-45940466593238295162012-03-10T09:13:00.000-08:002012-12-04T15:25:43.097-08:00Surrendering and the 2012 'Ascension Process'Well, this really is proof that time is speeding up - I seriously cannot believe that I haven't written on this site since the end of October 2011 AND I cannot believe how much has happened ! I really wanted this blog to be regular little increments but I have been so 'in it' for so many months now that it is really hard to keep on top of the writing. So, rather than waiting until things 'calm down', (which clearly may still take a little while,) I am just going to ahead and write while I can... <br />
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Last October I described my build up to 2012 experiences as being like waves that took over me and made me COMPLETELY surrender. This is something I have always found incredibly difficult in the past, but over the last year I simply no longer have the energy (or the will) to put up a fight. Last year I lost a major relationship (and all the delusions about love that I had been carrying around since I was 10 years old), broke contact with my step mother (who I grew up with and had been trying to 'sort things out with' for many years), and suffered a prolapsed disc which put me in hospital for a week led to major spinal surgery. In all these scenarios I actually felt a tremendous release which I find still incredibly difficult to describe. (See older posts for more details.)<br />
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In addition to these seemingly traumatic experiences, which were all about letting go of HUGE stuff that had been holding me back all my life, I also had some amazing spiritual 'opening up' and 'downloading' experiences. Then at the end of 2011, a few weeks after my last post, I hit a massive emotional wall which was a lot more difficult to contend with than all the rest of 2011 put together because of the sheer depth of despair I was experiencing and there being no obvious event to attribute it to. I was swinging from feeling suicidal to homicidal on a daily basis and felt like I had been 'taken over' by dark feelings that just didn't seem to belong to me. Well, it turns out I had been 'infultrated' by the pharmecutical pain killers I had recently stopped taking - I just didn't realise that was what it was for about two months... <br />
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Although this emotional tail spin was essentially drug induced, it turned out to be a major part of the 'clearing out' process which accompanies the '2012 shift' - otherwise known as the <i>acension process</i>. I soon noticed that the last time I had felt that level of pain was when I had an emotional breakdown at the age of 18. I was able to spend time reflecting on this, thankfully with some detachment despite the intensity of the feelings. Part of the healing came from the fact that this time round I didn't have to hide my pain and was therefore able to deal with it and get the support I needed. Most importantly, even though I didn't really understand what was happening while I was in the process, <i>I trusted absolutely that I would come through to the other side and that everything would be OK</i>.<br />
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When I was a traumatised teenager who was kicked out of home (through no fault of my own) while already in a state of accute emotional pain, I just <i>had</i> to keep going with absolutely no support from anyone and no idea how I was ever going to get through it. Ironically it was that terrible pain and isolation coupled with my unwavering determination to not 'let go' (for fear that I would not make it) that got me to this point today. It was then that I began my spiritual journey of self discovery and healing. It really was 'do or die' and thankfully I chose to 'do' or I don't think I would have survived. But this time there was no need to 'do' or 'try' or <i>fight against </i>anything - because that awful struggle is over and I can thankfully completely surrender and finally <i>LET GO</i>. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh (Breathe a huge sigh of relief with me!) <br />
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So anyway, here we are already 3 months into 2012. You'll be pleased to know that I managed to process the emotional wall and come out of the other side. (Thankfully I wasn't relying on my GP - they were no more help this time than they were in 1989, which I find absolutely shocking.)<br />
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So far 2012 has brought some very interesting positive developments in my life, though as you can probably imagine I am slightly wary about <i>any </i>developments at all after last year! (What may I ask, could the Universe be throwing at me next? Something GOOD? Are we SURE?!!) Actually, I have adopted a much more philosophical and balanced approach to life on both the 'positive' and 'negative' ends of the spectrum, so when faced with the posibility of something good happening, I no longer get all excited and throw myself in the deep end which was always how I 'embraced' life before. It isn't that negativity or cynicism that has finally got the better of me, something much more healthy has calmed me down; something that is often refered to as <i>non attachment</i>. <br />
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This isn't a feined 'I don't care' or an offensive 'whatever' attitude - the kind of protective mask we can sometimes hide behind to stop ourselves getting hurt. No, this is actually something much more profound and empowering because it is rooted in a genuine knowledge that whatever happens, <i>it will be OK</i>. Call it faith in God/dess, call it trusting life, or call it being older and wiser - I just <i>know</i> things will work out for the best and that I don't have to <i>make it happen</i>. (i.e. push, try, beg, plead, barter, manipulate, cajole, etc etc)<br />
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I am no longer afraid of losing anything or anyone, least of all some thing/one that the Universe knows I no longer need. There is absolutely no point in <i>hanging on</i> to anything or anyone - they will either stay or they will go, it will either happen or it will not. And, in the end - it really doesn't matter either way because <i>what is truly yours will always be yours, or will find a way back to you, no matter what you do</i>. And what isn't yours, won't stick around - and now it is time to let it go... It really is that simple!<br />
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So yes, there have been some interesting, unexpected and very surprising developments in my life. I am currently taking things one day/step at a time so I can watch how events unfold and respond appropriately, while enjoying this wonderfully calm, balanced new approach to life...<br />
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Freja <span style="color: magenta;"><span style="font-size: small;"><i>♥</i></span></span> Snowy Owlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14913828466236719023noreply@blogger.com0